Gonta shook his head as he picked his lover up. He couldn't accept that he didn't fail the other, as he felt like he could have done more to protect him. If he had just acted sooner, or if he had gone with Kiibo, or even if he had stopped his lover from going after noticing his expression, maybe things could have played out differently. However, he didn't do any of that, so he felt like he had failed the other.
"But…Gonta…let you…get hurt…!" he sobbed. It seemed like he would have a difficult time forgiving himself. "Gonta…Gonta is sorry…for failing you…"