it has been 5 minutes and she has not responded
I regret so much
but I also regret nothing lol
but uh seriously
why do I always get crushes on the most inopportune ppl?
crush 1 (but not in order of date lol): actually happened when I was an emotional mess and he had told me that he liked me a few months ago and then in the "present" I had just lost my best friend and was lonely and emotionally desperate for connection and when I told him, he was like… sorry, don't think of you that way…. like boi??
crush 2: uh long story short dated my best friend instead of me bc she suddenly became available and I wasn't old enough to date yet but you know there's a whole lotta other crap with him too maybe I'll tell you one day
crush 3: actually lowkey worked out? I dated him for a bit (twice, actually…) junior year for a month but I was emotionally unstable and just couldn't so I had to break it off, and then again senior year (like 3 months this time wow), but it was right after I figured out that I was bi (didn't know I was ace yet but was considering it) but again broke it off bc I was kinda a mess and needed to figure myself out but I also lowkey regret doing that I could've handled it way better
crush 4: jessy, who is like…. the most intense??? and my best friend??? but like totally blind
it's been 10 minutes now
