Just gonna casually copy and paste something from forever ago….
So, I discovered i was into girls and soon realized that i had completely and utterly fallen for her (okay fallens a strong word but i've never crushed so hard)
Okay she's beautiful
I know, i know - cliche
but i mean it
her eyes say a million words without saying anything at all, her hair falls out of place and she tries to fix it but it's not the same, she lights up when playing music, she reminds of all the stars in the universe, her laugh, her real laugh, the way she texts all excitedly sometimes, the conversations we've had, the passion she has for music and robotics and everything, i could go on and on
but stars,
i just
she's not perfect
but maybe that's why i like her so much?
i don't know
im being dumb, sorry
anyway back to the story, i figured it out one day when i saw her in a dress and at first i was completely denying it but the next day, we had this lockdown drill that no one knew of and i was super paranoid (twas the same day as the Santa Fe shooting) and i remember kinda just thinking that if i died….
i thought of her
(other people too but especially her)
and that's the exact moment that i knew
and then a month later i came out to my friends and confessed
(twas awkward at first but got through it)
and although she doesn't like me back, i'm okay with it
we talk over text a lot
she's opened up to me and in turn i did too
and we kinda are just there for each other and i'm okay with it