Don't Be Suspicious

stop…typing…like…this.

Just put the words on the fucking screen.

You'd seem a lot more sincere with real punctuation.

If we’re, like, idk fucking decent, we wouldn’t lie about what we’re going through.

I barely even talk about my life to begin with. Especially when it comes to mental health? That shit is SO MUCH HARDER than what people make it out to be. With trauma? It’s everything but innocent when you talk about it on a public forum and don’t get help.

It’s suspicious, and it’s wrong, especially when you have all of the people who keep their mental health to themselves and can possibly be triggered by that.

i wasnt trying to change anyones mind….
think what you want….
i know I'm a monster…..
i know I'm a burden….
i know people think I'm an attention seeker…..
i know people would rather me dead….
you want all my cards out on the table….here they are…..
I'm sorry i caused so much pain in this community….

STOP.
PULLING.
THE.
PITY.
CARD.

i wasnt trying to change anyones mind….
think what you want….
i know I'm a monster…..
i know I'm a burden….
i know people think I'm an attention seeker…..
i know people would rather me dead….
you want all my cards out on the table….here they are…..
I'm sorry i caused so much pain in this community….

i don't know what to think, but i understand what it's like to be depressed

What Emi said. We wouldn't find ourselves here.

With all respect, you don't know that

Yes, we do. Because most of us wouldn't make up such a detailed scheme of lies, especially not about this kind of shit.

[see my previous post]

We also know that the community is putting an immense amount of passion and care into us. I personally wouldn’t lie if I knew my friends cared for me so much.

(This is distracting me from homework and honestly idc)

If we’re, like, idk fucking decent, we wouldn’t lie about what we’re going through.

I barely even talk about my life to begin with. Especially when it comes to mental health? That shit is SO MUCH HARDER than what people make it out to be. With trauma? It’s everything but innocent when you talk about it on a public forum and don’t get help.

It’s suspicious, and it’s wrong, especially when you have all of the people who keep their mental health to themselves and can possibly be triggered by that.

Yes and they weren't aware that they would be causing any harm by opening up about their issues

These aren't 'issues,' Lee. They're lies.

_ouch

If we’re, like, idk fucking decent, we wouldn’t lie about what we’re going through.

I barely even talk about my life to begin with. Especially when it comes to mental health? That shit is SO MUCH HARDER than what people make it out to be. With trauma? It’s everything but innocent when you talk about it on a public forum and don’t get help.

It’s suspicious, and it’s wrong, especially when you have all of the people who keep their mental health to themselves and can possibly be triggered by that.

Yes and they weren't aware that they would be causing any harm by opening up about their issues

I think talking about cutting on a thread where ex-cutters exist and where people struggling with their own mental journeys can be considered detremental.

(How hard is it for one person to get an @? It's kinda annoying in the middle of everyone who has an @)

_ouch

more like oof

i wasnt trying to change anyones mind….
think what you want….
i know I'm a monster…..
i know I'm a burden….
i know people think I'm an attention seeker…..
i know people would rather me dead….
you want all my cards out on the table….here they are…..
I'm sorry i caused so much pain in this community….

Enough Nia.
Enough.

(this is another case of my famous I See Where They're Coming From, But I Don't Have To Like It moods)

i wasnt trying to change anyones mind….
think what you want….
i know I'm a monster…..
i know I'm a burden….
i know people think I'm an attention seeker…..
i know people would rather me dead….
you want all my cards out on the table….here they are…..
I'm sorry i caused so much pain in this community….

Enough Nia.
Enough.

is it bad that I'm sick of seeing this too

If we’re, like, idk fucking decent, we wouldn’t lie about what we’re going through.

I barely even talk about my life to begin with. Especially when it comes to mental health? That shit is SO MUCH HARDER than what people make it out to be. With trauma? It’s everything but innocent when you talk about it on a public forum and don’t get help.

It’s suspicious, and it’s wrong, especially when you have all of the people who keep their mental health to themselves and can possibly be triggered by that.

Yes and they weren't aware that they would be causing any harm by opening up about their issues

Causing immense distress in other users over their 'suicidal scares' almost daily is not being 'aware that they would be causing any harm by opening up about their issues'

It's just emotional manipulation.

To be honest, the part about cutting, not everyone will get triggered by hearing someone talking about it.
I know a few people who do, but I also know a hell of a lot of people who don't—myself included (unfortunately I still do). If someone is talking about self harm then I talk to them about it in private because it is obvious that they need help. Also, the fact that there ex-cutters in that chat could be a possible reason as to why they were talking about it there because they thought they might be able to get help from someone who has been through the same situation.

I'm dropping it now, I've said the majority of what I wanted to say and I hurt.
Thank you for not getting overly annoyed at me for the things I've been saying.
It's been nice having an actual discussion rather than a rampant argument.

Good point and agree

y’all can argue all you want but i was in the wrong.
i’m so sorry, all of you-
i should’ve actually thought and listened for more than a minute instead of just waking up in a grumpy mood and deciding to take it out on the first possible target.
i fucked up and am willing to do whatever’s needed to own up to it, whether that’s taking some time off or… i don’t know
whatever

Lmao emi I just did that exact thing

Reaction when you see Nia didn't leave when Eris said they needed to

Ella, you didn't do anything wrong.
You weren't wrong.
You just confirmed Nia is lying.

y’all can argue all you want but i was in the wrong.
i’m so sorry, all of you-
i should’ve actually thought and listened for more than a minute instead of just waking up in a grumpy mood and deciding to take it out on the first possible target.
i fucked up and am willing to do whatever’s needed to own up to it, whether that’s taking some time off or… i don’t know
whatever

Ella you're fine
Tbh I would've done the same thing
Maybe all of us would've

_ouch

more like oof

_{nope, still ouch. i’ve been in a situation like theirs before.}

y’all can argue all you want but i was in the wrong.
i’m so sorry, all of you-
i should’ve actually thought and listened for more than a minute instead of just waking up in a grumpy mood and deciding to take it out on the first possible target.
i fucked up and am willing to do whatever’s needed to own up to it, whether that’s taking some time off or… i don’t know
whatever

Ella do not regret coming out with the truth.
This is honestly something that has been on a lot of people's minds for a long, long time.

y’all can argue all you want but i was in the wrong.
i’m so sorry, all of you-
i should’ve actually thought and listened for more than a minute instead of just waking up in a grumpy mood and deciding to take it out on the first possible target.
i fucked up and am willing to do whatever’s needed to own up to it, whether that’s taking some time off or… i don’t know
whatever

Ella do not regret coming out with the truth.
This is honestly something that has been on a lot of people's minds for a long, long time.

Yeah, even Miri had doubts… you're not the only one