Hierarchy of hell (chat for anyone) [open for all!!]

I've been up since 4 am (i got 3 hours of sleep) BUT TELL ME WHY I'M MORE AWAKE THEN WHEN I GET 8+ HOURS OF SLEEP

because the human body hates people

Well then I hate the human body

Pov me when I have to change infront of people or see my body in any sense (Dysporia and recovering from mental illness whooh!)

I think im a lil broken cause physical affection from my mom makes me uncomfortable (kind of a lot🙂) but to almost anyone else I am extrEmely touch starved. like, she went to give a me a hug before going to bed and I felt so awkward and I really didnt want to give that hug. but my other friends (espEcially him) could literally just platonically flatten me with hugs and id feel very good.
AAhhh😭

Who's him? -gives a confused look-

sideways grin
oh not much, just my childhood boy best friend who ive known almost have of my life and who asked me to be his girlfriend twice before we were thirteen. and if I never met him, I would have two less scars from falling while following him (not figurative, im being quiet literal) ad he loves monopoly and takes pinky promises very seriously and he loves dogs but hates children, just like me and hes a full head taller than me although when we met we were the same height.
I have fallen so damn hard for him cause hes fuckin' PERFECT and
ye
🙃

I think im a lil broken cause physical affection from my mom makes me uncomfortable (kind of a lot🙂) but to almost anyone else I am extrEmely touch starved. like, she went to give a me a hug before going to bed and I felt so awkward and I really didnt want to give that hug. but my other friends (espEcially him) could literally just platonically flatten me with hugs and id feel very good.
AAhhh😭

gasp 1. yay, someone who gets it! 2. oh no, someone who gets it
yeah that gets awkward doesn't it..

yeah😭
also same; yay, but oh no..

I think im a lil broken cause physical affection from my mom makes me uncomfortable (kind of a lot🙂) but to almost anyone else I am extrEmely touch starved. like, she went to give a me a hug before going to bed and I felt so awkward and I really didnt want to give that hug. but my other friends (espEcially him) could literally just platonically flatten me with hugs and id feel very good.
AAhhh😭

gasp 1. yay, someone who gets it! 2. oh no, someone who gets it
yeah that gets awkward doesn't it..

It just feels weird. Ngl. I'm not that kid anymore.

yeah! she really does just want me to be a sheltered, innocent 8-year-old forever. like, momaah I gotta grow up at some point

Who's him? -gives a confused look-

sideways grin
oh not much, just my childhood boy best friend who ive known almost have of my life and who asked me to be his girlfriend twice before we were thirteen. and if I never met him, I would have two less scars from falling while following him (not figurative, im being quiet literal) ad he loves monopoly and takes pinky promises very seriously and he loves dogs but hates children, just like me and hes a full head taller than me although when we met we were the same height.
I have fallen so damn hard for him cause hes fuckin' PERFECT and
ye
🙃

So I assume you didn't agree to those requests, and said falling for him is recent and similar requests have not come so at this point it is a form of unrequited love?

maybe
hes autistic, so he behaves a little different. its hard to tell if hes messing with me, flirting or just fooling around like normal.
and ye, all those assumptions are correct; I didnt want to bf/gf before I was a teen (tryna be ✨responsible✨) and some stuff happened and I didnt see him for a year. I did tell him id be his gf now if he asked, but tis very possible he forgot; he has the worst memory😭lol.

1 ^1 -eats ice emotionally, in the corner-`

k but is it the good ice?

awwww dont cryyyy
dont be upset have some spaghetti

oh. no, but I do have SALSA

u want some