i'm sorry for existing…

maybe i don't deserve friends

love, why wouldn't you deserve friends?

people leave

yeah
people leave and people are trash
I know
but just because someone left you once (or twice or a dozen times) doesn't mean you don't deserve friends

i i'm hurting

internal mess

I'm sorry you're hurting
it really really hurts when someone leaves
I know
I…. I don't feel comfortable sharing my Tragic Backstory atm lol
but I know dear
it hurts a lot

internal mess

oh big mood me too

i can't stay

like… can't stay on notebook for long today?
or like…. you can't stay in a friendship?
or…. what do you mean

n nothing

<3
okay love
I am serious though
I'll be your friend and I will do my absolute best to never leave because I know that someone leaving you leaves you broken and a big mess and questioning life and depressed and all that jazz

ok :)

: D

i c cant breathe atm …

okay
can you breathe out all your air? then don't breathe back in right away. then take the biggest breath in you can. exhale. repeat

also if you cup your hands over your mouth and nose that might help

!!!!!

can I ask? is this an anxiety attack/panic attack?

bc that was my first thought

austin hon are you okay?

idk

okay let me ask a better question
are you physically okay?
(sorry if this is a weird question I ask a lot of my friends this)

idk what happened

did you just start having a hard time breathing? like were you hyperventilating or was it just suddenly hard to breathe, like your airway was blocked?

i was eating and, well something happened

wait my dude did you get something stuck in your airway
are you okay now?

i'm good now

okay that's good to know
I try not to lose friends right after I make them lol

water went the wrong way