Okay. I'm Sorry.

I accept your apology. Sure, this isn't something people should lie about, but you came clean and you seem to have good intentions. UNLIKE THAT LITTLE BRAT ON BAKERY STORY WHO MADE UP A STORY ABOUT BEING BULLIED AND LOSING HER HOUSE AND FAMILY, AND THEN TOLD PEOPLE SHE WAS GOING TO COMMIT SUICIDE RIGHT AFTER I TRIED TO COMFORT HER, MAKING MY GULLIBLE 8-YEAR-OLD SELF THINK IT WAS MY FAULT AND THAT I HAD KILLED HER, LEAVING MY WITH UNBEARABLE GUILT FOR MANY YEARS ONLY TO END UP COMING BACK AND SENDING ME DIGITAL BROWNIES AS IF THAT WAS GOING TO MAKE UP FOR IT. (Brownies were the least valuable food item on that game) NO WONDER THAT GAME'S INITIALS SPELL BS BECAUSE THAT GAME WAS パンケーキ (cursing censored with the Japanese word for pancake, because this is a good Christian server)

No betrayal can feel worse than that. That girl faked her death for attention, and never fully came clean. Shuri at least said sorry, and his lie wasn't as serious in comparison.

No betrayal can feel worse than that. That girl faked her death for attention, and never fully came clean. Shuri at least said sorry, and his lie wasn't as serious in comparison.

Correct. Lets forgive and foget. Take a break, sip some tea, eat some パンケーキs and go on with our lives.

I ate snickers and frosting from the fridge…

I just skipped breakfast.

Guys, he’s signed off, officially this time.
He’s taking a break.

I just skipped breakfast.

Same

Well, that's not true, I did have half a mini bagel

I had two things of applesauce and mashed potatoes.

Usually, though, I skip breakfast.

I skip half of all the meals because im so lazy

I had a bagel and croissant but I also normally skip breakfast

I had two things of applesauce and mashed potatoes.

Usually, though, I skip breakfast.

I ate mashed potatoes for lunch. Nothing else, just mashed potatoes because the salad looked wimpy and gross and I was not in a hot dog mood

I skip half of all the meals because im so lazy

MOOD

I skip half of all the meals because im so lazy

MOOD

S a m e

I skip half of all the meals because im so lazy

MOOD

S a m e

My lazy beano friends yiissss

Alright, I’ve calmed a little and am ready to say I’m pissed. You didn’t need to make up a really fucked up story just so you could “cheer us up” by “being a survivor. I’ll tell you what survival looks like. Survival is not making shit up. As someone who has had several people they know commit suicide, had watched someone they loved be sentenced to die for something they didn’t do, and someone who had had friends die, REAL friends, I’m fucking disappointed. You did something bad with good intentions, and to some of us that shit is sensitive. I have tried to be nice, and you betrayed my trust. Have a nice break, and maybe I won’t be so fucking disappointed when you come back

Aaris was an important part of this too, why is everyone saying it's just Shuri? Not that you guys need to go hate Aaris just mentioning that

I had hot cocoa for breakfast because the bagged donuts we were supposed to have taste like rubber

This is one of those few times in my life where I'm going to go into depth talking about my own emotions to people on the Internet. Not because I'm incredibly angry, but more because everyone else seems angry and I feel like I should be. I just. I'm not. I'm looking inside trying to find anger? But it was more like a split second of disappointment and then immediate forgiveness. I mean, honestly I want to get mad. You told me something in confidence, and I told you up front that whatever people tell me, I take them at that. That should make me angry that you went ahead and lied to me, in confidence, anyway. After I mentioned to you days before that I had trigger issues involving my friends dying, which maybe you forgot but is something I tend to remember about people when they tell me. I forgive much too easily for the sake of my own heart when it comes down to it. And this isn't to say I have no negative feelings, but it's not anger. It's not any volatile emotion. Not anything that can be directed towards you. It's the negative emotion I always feel. That dirty, sinking feeling that seeps deep inside my bones until my heart feels like it's deflating. I don't even know what emotion that is but I feel it much too often and I wish so much it could be replaced by a thing like anger thats tangible and directable and pointable. But I forgave you before I even had a say in it, so you don't have to worry about making me mad, Shuri.

I see. I did forget about those trigger issues and for that I'm deeply sorry, by the end of this week I'm gonna have those issues too, if I don't already. You gave me your trust, and I betrayed you, and obviously that's not OK. I see that. I apologize for how I made you feel, if you're willing to accept my apology.
I do realize I hsve massively screwed up.

Thank you, and of course I accept your apology. You did, but screwing up is okay as long as you learn from it. We all screw up at times, and I'd rather you learn a lesson than just start beating yourself up.

I think the reason I forgave you so quickly is because I know what you’re going through, I have said some really stupid things and I’m pretty sure a lot of people hate me now. I know what I’m saying as I say it, and I know better than to say that, but it just flies out of my mouth anyway, and then I always end up crying, alone, in my room, hoping that someone will forgive me. Most of the time they do, but that doesn’t stop me crying myself to sleep over it. And then you’d think I’d learn, but it happens again the next day or the next week. it never stops, and so I’m guessing that’s what happened to you, and I’m trying to react the way I wish people would react when I say those stupid things. What I’m trying to say is, I can relate. I know you regret what you said, and I forgive you completely. You’re still one of my precious siblings in this Notebook family and I love you so much.

Thank you guys…