i feel physically sick and my eyeballs feel like they’re gonna leak water at any moment
in other words i’m so fecking tired i could cry
how do y’all do this
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yeah i get that zach
'nd ohnuuuu but i cant give you advice because i follow my own wacky sleep schedule
which is
sleep anywhere between midnight and never
and fall asleep whenever
preferably after midnight
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Well when you’re used to not sleeping properly, your body doesn’t really tend to show these kinds of effects.
Just don’t make a habit out of staying awake too late because it will fuck you up.
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ah
ill try not to
I just drove for 10 hours
I hurt, that was a lot of driving, why did I do that.
I was driving from Idaho to California and I need hours for my Drivers Permit.
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ah i see
if you don't mind me asking
which state are you from?
(also idaho's a pretty state, i wanna go there more lkjfdsklj)
Uhh
I drove around a couple parking lots for like 15-20 minutes
Because I'm learning to drive and stuff
As of late, I just don't seem to feel emotions unless something triggers them to be very strong. I hate feeling like a shell. I've always known that I'm useless but goddamn I didn't want this.
Whenever an emotion does come along, it's more of a dull pang in my chest. Like it's there, but not really making an effort.
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I’ve driven 13 hours just to go camping.. remind me to never put myself through that pain again
As of late, I just don't seem to feel emotions unless something triggers them to be very strong. I hate feeling like a shell. I've always known that I'm useless but goddamn I didn't want this.
Whenever an emotion does come along, it's more of a dull pang in my chest. Like it's there, but not really making an effort.
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update: i slept
had a weird sort of nightmare kind of dream
it was graphic and violent but didn’t scare me
so that was odd
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Wow imagine having actual dreams..
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I don’t get dreams so much as I get precognitive images and simulations..
Good morning, I'm five minutes into being awake and I've come to realize that my dream had legitimate plot.
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a lot of my dreams are ptsd shit
update 2:
It seems Half Asleep Nutella™️ managed to escape to the forums again cause i don’t remember saying that I just fell back asleep
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Woohoo! It's my favourite time of the day. Time to panic and stress out from probably no reason. :D
you're gonna be okay you little fucker, alright? I don't care how much you doubt yourself because im here and i'll make sure that doubt is pulverized once im done with it. you're valid zach and i love the fuck outta you. You bring out the best in me, it's something you should know.
and no that whole fucking essay didn't take me a whole ass hour to put together, and no you didn't make me fucking cry with what you said just because i want you to be happy and when you're feeling sad like that it kills me. >:[
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lowkey wish my partner would say things like that..
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~The things have been turned in~
now I wait in crippling anxiety
Though I’m feeling really good about my audition. Thanks everyone who offered advice/sentiments.
don't you love it when you accidentally come up with a really cool looking drawing concept late at night but can't find a reference that fits
~The things have been turned in~
now I wait in crippling anxiety
Though I’m feeling really good about my audition. Thanks everyone who offered advice/sentiments.
That's awesome!!!
I'm sure you did amazing-
I need to write but I can't
I have 0 ideas, only a title
I need motivation
oh mood