not really but i’m better
i forced myself to cry a bit, which helped slightly
what i really need is to get some sleep though
i would talk about what happened but there’s no possible way to say “i wished death upon someone all because of my own delusional worldview and i’m only now starting to feel bad” without sounding like the world’s biggest shit sandwich and as much as i desperately crave negative attention right about now i still want to be able to pretend that i’m an ok person who deserves to stay alive. does that sound dramatic? that sounds super dramatic. eh whatever i’ll regret it in the morning
…and also cause this topic sometimes sparks debates but i couldn’t care less about that, this is barely a venting space anymore why would it matter