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Please help me.

@basil_ forum 33 comments schedule
@basil_

I need to tell someone. Someone in real life that i'm depressed and that I want to kill myself daily. Because it's getting to overwhelming to have to hide all this from people. I need someone that will give me a hug when i'm feeling down and will help me when i'm sad.
But I don't know how
I can't work up the courage.

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write a letter!!! I swear its so much easier and then its over! you can't say exactly what you want to say without being cut off or chickening out!!
and you can always talk to me!! always here for you!!!
dont kill yourself you are beautiful!

@basil_

But what if I tell the wrong person and they don't understand. What if they say they get it but they start avoiding me and stop talking to me and they aren't my friend anymore and then i won't want to tell anyone cause i'm afraid to tell anyone else because it's really hard to explain what i'm going through and i don't know what to do..

@basil_

oh well..
nobody needs to know..

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But what if I tell the wrong person and they don't understand. What if they say they get it but they start avoiding me and stop talking to me and they aren't my friend anymore and then i won't want to tell anyone cause i'm afraid to tell anyone else because it's really hard to explain what i'm going through and i don't know what to do..

THEN GIVE ME AN ADDRESS AND I WILL FITE THEM!!!!
Seriously though, if you tell someone that and they react like that, drop them. They are making your life bad if you are afraid to tell them.

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oh well..
nobody needs to know..

YES!! YES THEY DO!!! GETTING HELP IS VV HARD BUT ONCE YOU DO AND YOU HAVE PPL YOU CAN RELY ON IT WILL GET A LOT EASIER

@basil_

but I want to tell him
he's one of my best friends
i'm just scared
but I want to do it

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TELL HIM !!! IT WILL BE SO MUCH EASIER!!!!!! IF HE IS WEIRDED OUT, THEN GIVE HIM TIME! IF HE IS S TIL WEIRDED OUT AFTER SOME TIME THEN HE IS NOT GOOD 4 U!!

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practice on me if you need

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

KMart… Forgive me for being so damn late darling… Don't kill yourself… I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I let you leave this community. If I let you leave all these wonderful people behind. It gets so much better, trust me…

@basil_

yeah..yeah…
I'll probably tell him..someday

@basil_

thx shuri

@basil_

i'm really tired

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

Listen… If you have to find a secluded space to scream and cry, and get all your feelings out, you do that… But I'll make you the same promise I made Sammy…

@basil_

I don't have any free time

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

Then… I'll help you with your homework so that you can have free time… OK?

@basil_

i wish you could

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

I will… OK? Just hang in there KMart… We can do it over PM, OK?

@basil_

i want to sleep
sleep is like dying except you don't have to say goodbye to anyone

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

That's right sweetie… So sleep… But please don't kill yourself. I'm begging you…

@basil_

actually sleep is horrible because you have to wake up and have another reminder that you're still alive

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

But it will help you deal with everything when you wake up again…

@basil_

i guess…

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

Yeah…

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get some sleep everything looks better in the sunlight. write your feelings on a piece of paper, shred it, and scatter it with the wind.

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

She is doing better, Moonlight…

@basil_

get some sleep everything looks better in the sunlight. write your feelings on a piece of paper, shred it, and scatter it with the wind.

that sounds fun
maybe i'll do that

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get some sleep everything looks better in the sunlight. write your feelings on a piece of paper, shred it, and scatter it with the wind.

that sounds fun
maybe i'll do that

I find, sometimes, it feels like some of your feelings disappear with the words. write it in marker, dunk it in water, take the tiny pieces and throw them out!

@basil_

yeah
I should do that

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

Yeah… Showers/baths are nice too, so take one if you're feeling down. It always helps me.
Stay safe, and hold onto the things that make you happiest!