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@FRANKtheTritoposaur March 29, 2023

This is just a venting space for anyone. Feel free to vent about your problems or rant about your hyperfixations.
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1)Please be considerate to others.

2) Trigger warnings and spoilers
-If you have potentially triggering content in your post please put a trigger warning at the top
-When the triggering content is said please put it in a spoiler. If you do not know how quote this to see the formatting.

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3) Use titles to describe what you are trying to gain from this post.
-EX: Looking for awnsers, Venting, Comfort please, Was I being mean?

4) Swearing
-ok but put a warning at the beginning just in case people don't like swearing for whatever reason.

5)NSFW Policy
-Keep nsfw at a minimum
-Put spoilers around anything nsfw
-Be aware of the minors here
-Put a warning at the beginning of your post

6) Be nice.
-Do not give unwanted advice or hate on anyone unless they ask for it.
-Bullying will not be tolerated
-Common human decency

7)Privacy
-If your story has other people in it please keep their names secret
-Do not put anyones personal or private information in here.

Other than that have fun. Just rant or vent or whatever.

@FRANKtheTritoposaur April 06, 2023

//TW//suicidal thoughts\

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@William April 06, 2023

//TW//suicidal thoughts\

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(Hey bestie I was there literally a week ago. You can dm me I love hearing about special interests. I care <3)

@thenumber1vikkstarstan April 08, 2023

TW/// general depression stuff and swearing

i feel like im never going to be anything worth remembering. im 18 years old, im physically and mentally ill, the world is on fire, and im supposed to have my whole life ahead of me and i know im not the only person who feels this way but its so fucking hard. i want to be worth something, i dont want to be forgotten, and i know people say they love me and care about me but i just cant believe it, how could anyone ever think im worth anything?

@thenumber1vikkstarstan April 08, 2023

TW/// general depression stuff and swearing

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i feel like im never going to be anything worth remembering. im 18 years old, im physically and mentally ill, the world is on fire, and im supposed to have my whole life ahead of me and i know im not the only person who feels this way but its so fucking hard. i want to be worth something, i dont want to be forgotten, and i know people say they love me and care about me but i just cant believe it, how could anyone ever think im worth anything?

@FRANKtheTritoposaur April 09, 2023

//TW//self-harm, drugs, suicidal thoughts, sex\\ Swearing.

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I don't ficking know why I'm like this. My life was going fine until the sleepover. Fucking god the sleepover… That was the first time. I fucking cried so much. I rubbed off my skin, I didn't do my arms they would of saw. I itched my stomach. I sat there crying in the stupid bathroom and scratched my stomach. That night I wished I had brought my paci, no actually I did. I did bring it, I was too afraid to take it out though. I was so scared that becky* and jess* would see. I sat in the bathroom and cried while they locked me out of the bedrooms. One pair having sex the other smoking pot and making my things stink. I was so scared. I had danni's* iPad and my phone. I tried texting people but they didn't answer, of course they didn't. Who would want to answer the pathetic little girl sitting on the floor crying and self-harming for the first time. The stuffies I brought were locked in the rooms away from me. I hated that night every day since. "You loved that sleepover" my stupid friends joke. They just thought that I was peeing and changing my pad everytime I went into the bathroom. "You loved drinking monster and playing spin the bottle and 7 minutes in heaven. You loved going out at 4 am to look for Danni's* phone. You loved being the one to find it. You loved being surrounded by people." I did. I did love those bits. But those bits amounted to a couple hours, to 10% of the time I spent there. I wish I loved it all. But. I. Dont. I hated it. I never processed how much I hated it until now. I never processed how much hate and anger I hold for the people involved with that. I HATE THEM AND I DONT KNOW AHT DO DO ABOUT IT I DONT KNOWIDONTKNOIDONTKNOWIDONTKNOW AND I HATE NOT KNOWING I hate December 4th and I hate everything I've ever done that day.

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ranting and venting space!! <3