The Fear of Failure

screaming

Mood

Literally every waking moment

I'm having an internal breakdown rn

same. rn im panicking because im directing a play and today's the first rehearsal and i had a kid drop out and honestly im already failing

Aw man I'm sorry my guy

im just going to pretend its fine until it works itself out tbh and continue to scream internally :D

Yeah good plan
I just don't let anyone know why I'm anxious lol

lol my entire philosophy in life is just ignore the problem til it goes away

Wow so true
I'm just playing the same song on loop rn

what song

The Marvel Bunch piano version

lol. anyways i gtg this is my parents computer and i dont really wanna be caught

okie dokie
screaming continues

Same. Also let me just rant on a semi-related topic.

I have this horrible mindset that's so self-destructive but I KEEP ON DOING IT:

"Well I'm already this deep into crap might as well keep going."

SO TERRIBLE. I vented to my sister last night and I am RESOLVED to change. The fact that I have to make the u-turn bothers me cuz I don't want to admit that I'm not who I want to be right now, and I just want to have already made the u-turn, on the road to success. But no. I have to actually do work.

BUT NOTHING'S GONNA GET IN MY WAY THIS TIME GET OUTTA MY FACE LAZY ME YOU'RE DEAD NOW.

Okay I'm done.

lol that's great!

Here I am again