Ok so due to my undying curiosity, I really wanna know…
What does gender dysphoria feel like??? Since I have a hard time picturing emotions in my mind, could one of you explain it? It's totally cool if you don't want you, I'm just pretty curious.
My dysphoria is more social than physical. Really, I don't feel to bad about my body most days I might have trained myself to not think of my body as mine when I look in the mirror aha . Really, I just feel like nothing I do is ever going to change how people treat me, and I hate being treated like a woman. My family is big on 'being a gentleman' and whatnot, so more often than not I used to be forced to wait for my brother or father open doors for me, offer me their hand to help me in things, and stuff like that, and I always felt horrible about it. Then, when I found that me doing those things made me feel a lot better, along with he/him pronouns on what I've come to know as male days, it was hard to always be told "don't do that, you're a woman, you should have a man care for you." Well, I almost always think "but I want to be the man, I want to be a son." I want people to see me as and treat me as a man, if not so much change my body (but fck big boobles, I want a reduction because my back always ends u hurting after a long day bending over ;-;)