The Roodeness Shenanigans

You amaze me too seeb
But I broke my toe and it h u r t s
I;m still wearing platforms anywYAS

I'm seriously sick of this "let's bang on everything to make very loud, short noises" trend
It's a fucking safety issue and it lasts all day

tired of having a uterus. i'm done. who's joining me for a hysterectomy at claire's

So I'm just scrolling through the intrusive thoughts hashtag on tiktok as you do, and I just realized that all of my dreams are my intrusive thoughts being true/acting on them. Which is why I don't have good dreams and in the rare occasion I do, it's one of the ones where my brain goes "kiss this person you have no interest in at all" and it works out not terribly. And then it's interrupted by me being outed to my parents or someone stabbing a spoon through my eye
Anyways, don't know how to stop it from happening

That's the point of dreams, to explore different paths and their outcomes without all the logical bumps and decision making

So I'm just scrolling through the intrusive thoughts hashtag on tiktok as you do, and I just realized that all of my dreams are my intrusive thoughts being true/acting on them. Which is why I don't have good dreams and in the rare occasion I do, it's one of the ones where my brain goes "kiss this person you have no interest in at all" and it works out not terribly. And then it's interrupted by me being outed to my parents or someone stabbing a spoon through my eye
Anyways, don't know how to stop it from happening

That's the point of dreams, to explore different paths and their outcomes without all the logical bumps and decision making

Why can’t real life be like that
Oh? This didn’t work
Well it never happened I guess.
Save myself the time of overthinking

Speaking of dreams, I had the weirdest fucking dream last night. Peter Pan was a kidnapper in like, steampunk futuristic London, who always left behind a red arrow. He would kidnap kids, keep them for a month or so, and then their bodies would turn up somewhere. Captain Hook was his rival(?) who did the same thing and they kept trying to go after the same kids just to fuck with each other. I was a detective investigating Peter and trying to catch him. It was…very odd, considering that I'm currently writing a Peter Pan retelling that is nothing like that

Speaking of dreams, I had the weirdest fucking dream last night. Peter Pan was a kidnapper in like, steampunk futuristic London, who always left behind a red arrow. He would kidnap kids, keep them for a month or so, and then their bodies would turn up somewhere. Captain Hook was his rival(?) who did the same thing and they kept trying to go after the same kids just to fuck with each other. I was a detective investigating Peter and trying to catch him. It was…very odd, considering that I'm currently writing a Peter Pan retelling that is nothing like that

But you're not even far off from the original plot lmao

Speaking of dreams, I had the weirdest fucking dream last night. Peter Pan was a kidnapper in like, steampunk futuristic London, who always left behind a red arrow. He would kidnap kids, keep them for a month or so, and then their bodies would turn up somewhere. Captain Hook was his rival(?) who did the same thing and they kept trying to go after the same kids just to fuck with each other. I was a detective investigating Peter and trying to catch him. It was…very odd, considering that I'm currently writing a Peter Pan retelling that is nothing like that

But you're not even far off from the original plot lmao

Well yes, but no? Idk it was weird

Playstation notification noise
New fear unlocked: Wrong Place Wrong Time

Context: I went to the bathroom this morning and on my way out, the principle stopped me in front of the exit, pushed me backwards, told me to stay inside, and announced that everyone in there had to go to her office (there was a group of girls just sitting around shooting the shit- for once, not doing drugs). I tried to ask her if I had to go too, because I didn't even know these people, but she didn't answer. I ended up sneaking away. But now I'm scared she'll recognize me and call me into her office to have my bag searched or something.
I'm not here to get high, I'm just here to take a fucking piss I have a small bladder, god.
I will not be using that restroom again.

And like?? Why don't you intervene bathroom shenanigans, when, idk, the whole place REEKS of marijuana? These people think they're doing something but they're really not. Adults are so daft.

https://getpocket.com/explore/item/the-bomb-didn-t-beat-japan-stalin-did?utm_source=pocket-newtab

This article makes me angry. Not because it's wrong; it's right and I agree with it and think that it's really interesting. It makes me angry because the first time I read it I tried to discuss what it said with my dad, and he kept interrupting me to tell me I was wrong, that wasn't what happened, blah blah blah basically just being a massive bitch and mansplaining and not letting me explain myself before interrupting me, and then playing the victim when I called him out on it and refused to repeat what I hda been saying before he interrupted. That's why it makes me angry :)

How the hell do people get high at school

Being high basically paralyzes me and I love getting high but got damnb I wouldn't be able to function

it's difficult but i just carry eye drops and try to act like how someone else is. i never can actually function but at least it looks like it

so I need y'all to listen to "Joy of Jesus" by Stephanie Lambring. I cried while listening to it last night (i promise it's not a preachy song)