I can't really control my anger sometimes. Usually I can handle it, but if somebody says something that gets on my nerves, I lose my fucking mind. There are only a couple of things that can really get me to that point that I know of, and that's people saying "you're just doing this because you're selfish" and "there's nothing wrong with you. you're just privileged and don't know how to handle your problems. you don't even have depression."
those usually really get to me and make me angry enough to hit somebody…You've got a cooler head than I used to… I used to snap over way less than that…
yeah, same. That's just what gets to me now.
I remember the first time I punched somebody is when they accused me of something I didn't do, so I punched him and that ended up setting off a bunch of bad events, and I would honestly give anything to either change what I did or make sure I never met the guy in the first place. He's the one person I can say with 100% certainty that I hate.
Ah. Recently helping a certain person has helped me kick the habit… But back when I was a Junior I used to be Satan himself… I remember beating the shit out of over 15 people in one month… Sure they were all wannabe gangsters and people who stabbed others in the back… But still…
All that and it's only got me suspended once….