The tired, gay, sad, and confused chat

I think I’m going to go hop in the shower for a bit to see if that will help. Or just turn the water on and let the room steam up because it’s getting pretty late.

That's a good idea. Hopefully that will help. I can't usually take sudafed and tylenol/ibuprofen because then I'll get several nosebleeds and yeah… Good luck! I hope you get to feeling better soon.

Do you think if I took ibuprofen it would help with the headache?

all the doctors here are complete idiots

yeah, Lee's advice is good when it comes to being sick because they're sick so often lmao

Because autoimmune disorders are a bitch but no doctor can actually diagnose me up here~ cuz life is a fucking nightmare

Why not

In my main town, we have an understaffed clinic of family doctors with no expertise in any area. In a close but different town, there is a hostpital that charges too much for literally everything. In a further-away city, there are capable docots but they also cost quite a bit of money to go see, money of which my family doesn't have the luxury to spend on me for something we all suspect to be true. The only option really left would be to remove my tonsils, but the soonest that could be done is sometime this next summer.

As you can see, it's a bit complicated lol

Do you think if I took ibuprofen it would help with the headache?

Perhaps. Wouldn't hurt to try I suppose (it should also help with the fever). Is it a two-tablet or a three-tablet headache?

all the doctors here are complete idiots

oh oh oh that reminds me, apparently there's a new child psychiatrist at the clinic here. They called and asked if I wanted to see him bc they know I hate the other psychiatrist that's in town so I set up an appointment for the third and I honestly hope he's not a dick

I hope not tbh

Same here, man. Really hoping he isn't another douche.

Two tablet headache

I used to go to a child therapist and that was fine and all and she’s nice, but the thing is she brought fucking everything back around to my daddy issues and always wanted to talk about that but like there’s a lot more pressing psychological issues I would rather discuss with her than my biological father and how we all know he’s a douche.

Most therapists are trash.
If y'all need I'll be your guys's therapist!

I took an ibuprofen

I took an ibuprofen

Good. It will start working soon and hopefully you'll be able to keep it down, yeah?

Yep.

yeah, Lee's advice is good when it comes to being sick because they're sick so often lmao

Because autoimmune disorders are a bitch but no doctor can actually diagnose me up here~ cuz life is a fucking nightmare

oh dude that sounds horrible and it sucks not being able to find a doctor that can help

Yeah it does suck but there's really nothing I can do about it at this point besides just explain "I have an extremely weak immune system and sometimes I had to attend school while wearing a mask to keep myself from becoming sick from the germ-infested everything."

Yep.

Good. Good. I wish I was physically there to help you out, though. I really hope you get to feeling better soon.

Aww thanks bud

Okay but I found a website called RaiseMe where you can input everything you do in high school (grades, service hours, extracurriculars) and earn actual legit scholarship money from colleges. Like, I really want to go to Columbia College Chicago, but it’s hella expensive. Turns out, CCC partners with RasieMe and will accept my high school stuff for scholarship money 🤯

holy shit that's beautiful

I’ve earned about $1,140 total for all 4 years so far. I need to get my grades from last year because I don’t have them rn.

Thankie. I have decided to start trying harder in my academics because of this and out of spite towards intelligent people who have belittled me. Jokes on you, I’m classified as ‘gifted’ so suck on that.

lmao I've resorted to only trying in the classes I like. but literally all my teachers with the exception of a few are assholes that don't know how to teach so half my classes I wouldn't be able to get an A in if I tried

but I'm passing everything so I'm okay lol

Oof
But yes use the candy cane axe

Alright since apparently is seems like two people on this chat self harm, let me just say that I understand the want to do it, and the relief it might bring, but really before the habit gets worse you should get help. Let your guidance councilor help you. I know it feels like the world is against you right now but really it isn't. You need to tell the truth, and I know you're going to absolutely hate this advice because I would have too, but please consider that your councilor might be able to help you diminish the want to self harm in the first place. Also, examine why you're hurting yourself. Is it because your home is not a safe place to be out? Is it because of panic/anxiety? Are you depressed? All of these different reasons have different ways in which you can be helped, but really the most important step is telling your councilor the truth. If the problem is your mother, maybe you could ask if your councilor would be able to keep things confidential? Really the most important thing is that you're aware of how special your life is, because every life, every person, is special and worth the entire world. Please don't continue hurting yourself for longer than necessary if it can be avoided.

I think it was a while ago in the chat where people were talking about that and I'm late, but I still felt like it needed to be said.