Sigh, I guess it's time for advice…
~TRIGGER WARNING (Kinda)~
As I may have said, I am selfless…extremely selfless. Like, "I care more about other people than I do myself." And…I've taken that to an extreme, and I'm depressed and thinking suicidal thoughts. (Don't worry, I've talked to my parents and school counselor about it.) I have also… harmed myself. I do not like hospitals and therapists, so I'm in a downwards spiral of despair and hate, I don't know what I want for myself anymore because I want to please everyone. I'm just surviving one day after another, which seems to be working out. I don't want to give anyone the burden of death, especially family and friends.