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@actual-fandom-trash July 03, 2020

I'm sorry, Jyn, but no. It's not anyone's fault, first of all, but you're kinda victimizing yourself right now by calling yourself "a selfish bitch" and it isn't working.

@evastardust RRAAAARRL July 03, 2020

RRAAAARRL

~~It was meant as self-depreciating humor to lighten the mood but okay~~

@actual-fandom-trash July 03, 2020

~~oh, sorry~~

@evastardust RRAAAARRL July 03, 2020

RRAAAARRL

~~No biggie, I get that it probably didn't come off like that~~

@berlioz July 03, 2020

Ella, there's nothing you need to apologize for. You're a fucking delight. I love you lots, and I know probably you feel stuck and worried and frustrated right now. I know it sucks. You're a very mature person, and a very kind one. You've done nothing wrong.

@The-N-U-T-Cracker July 03, 2020

thank you guys…
i'm sorry for that, i was kind of panicking and didn't know what else to do other than yell at myself publicly-
i love you all so much, even if it may not seem like it at times, you mean the whole world to me

Deleted user July 03, 2020

HAMILTON DROPPED TODAY ON DISNEY + !!!! I'M SO HAPPY!!!

@Pickles July 03, 2020

I'm so mad that I don't have Disney+

Deleted user July 03, 2020

(Oh sorry, maybe you can come over to my place and watch it with me?)

@Pickles July 03, 2020

(~~I wish lol~~)

@GameMaster July 03, 2020

I'm not gonna get sick today I'm not gonna get sick today I'm not gonna get sick today I'm not gonna get sick today I'm not gonna get sick today imnotgonnagetsicktoday imnotgonnagetsicktoday imnotgonnagetsicktoday imnotgonnagetsicktoday imnotgonnagetsicktoday imnotgonnagetsicktoday imnotgonnagetsicktoday imnotgonnagetsicktoday imnotgonnagetsicktoday imnotgonnagetsicktoday imnotgonnagetsicktoday

Eats food

Nevermind

@berlioz July 03, 2020

Aw I felt that man.

@Pickles July 03, 2020

My intent on this trip was to read
I haven't read at all but I've listened to so much true crime and now I only have like 40 episodes left until I'm all caught up

@evastardust RRAAAARRL July 03, 2020

RRAAAARRL

Meanwhile I was like "this weekend I will spend time with my family!" and I read 2 books last night instead of sleeping at a godly hour

@ElderGodSwimwithGamers July 03, 2020

So, my mom just did her thing were she degrades me and tells me what my therapist and doctors have told me isn't true because of what she thinks with her literal boomer mind? Like, she just said because I have more confusion with what others ask me to do, even with stuff I've done for years, slightly, very slightly more than what I want to do means I'm not autistic??

@moss July 03, 2020

someone help me im literally so awkward. Like there's people I want to befriend and when they show interest in befriending me as well I don't know what to say. Like I complimented one of my friends' art and then they tell me u too send me ur art. Like what do i sayyyyy.

@SupernaturalSyGuyIsTIred July 03, 2020

someone help me im literally so awkward. Like there's people I want to befriend and when they show interest in befriending me as well I don't know what to say. Like I complimented one of my friends' art and then they tell me u too send me ur art. Like what do i sayyyyy.

Just be yourself; easy as that.

@StarryWolfy July 03, 2020

I'm pretending to have a problem with a side character in a campaign I'm in. Why, you may ask?

That NPC has no business being that beautiful.
He's too fucking hot.
He needs to die.

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/671520481832337408/718984285260087326/2f25ac375618d084ecc5fa610718ff33.png.

LOOK

NO MAN HAS ANY EXCUSE BEING THAT PRETTY, FICTIONAL OR NO

I'M GAY AND I'M SUFFERING

OMG He's HOT…..
(This is from the old thread, and Also I've been off for two weeks someone give me an update on what I've missed.)

@berlioz July 03, 2020

When you're laughing along to something funny and you're genuinely happy while simultaneously dreading being alive and you're genuinely distressed and you wonder how that's humanly possible but then you remember Schrodinger's Cat applies to a lot of things but that's not a satisfying enough answer to the complex emotional process we go through so you type out this vent as some sort of comfort and you say you're typing it out in the vent just to add a meta flair. Haha mood.

@Mojack July 03, 2020

you ever just finish a really good game and you’re not sure what to do afterwards?

that’s me.

that’s me after finishing death stranding

@Pickles July 04, 2020

When you're laughing along to something funny and you're genuinely happy while simultaneously dreading being alive and you're genuinely distressed and you wonder how that's humanly possible but then you remember Schrodinger's Cat applies to a lot of things but that's not a satisfying enough answer to the complex emotional process we go through so you type out this vent as some sort of comfort and you say you're typing it out in the vent just to add a meta flair. Haha mood.

Haha definitely never felt that before-

@The-N-U-T-Cracker July 04, 2020

yeah don't know that feeling at all heheh

@The-N-U-T-Cracker July 04, 2020

The youtubers are monetized again :DDDDD

@evastardust RRAAAARRL July 04, 2020

RRAAAARRL

When you're laughing along to something funny and you're genuinely happy while simultaneously dreading being alive and you're genuinely distressed and you wonder how that's humanly possible but then you remember Schrodinger's Cat applies to a lot of things but that's not a satisfying enough answer to the complex emotional process we go through so you type out this vent as some sort of comfort and you say you're typing it out in the vent just to add a meta flair. Haha mood.

Haha definitely never felt that before-

Schrodinger's Satisfaction: So Confusing It Brought The Cat Back

@saor_illust July 04, 2020

aaaa
i forgot about the topic
i told a friend i would ask about therapy (because we had a smol discussion) and first-time-experiences since because of a not-so-great (it wasn't terrible, just not ideal) experience with a therapist in the past, i still get kinda nervous at the idea of maybe going to one
and ig maybe it would help but
like
ella, what was your experiences like, if you even got therapy. even just the getting meds part or whatever, idk
just
i wanna know how it all played out

@ccb July 04, 2020

hi i have something i NEED to get off my chest and every other platform i use is too linked to my irl persona. tw for sexual assault i guess and sex stuff in general. this is a messed up story

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a couple years ago i owed my dad a lot of money and i felt like i was in really dire straits. i vented on my tumblr about how financially stressed i was and i got a strange message from a blank account saying they were someone who “wanted to help me.” i almost blocked them on the spot, but i prodded for answers a little, and they told me they’d give me $100 if i sent them some nudes. i didn’t feel like i was in a position to say no, so i did, no face in them or anything, and sure enough i got $100. but he started coercing me into more and more explicit stuff and would only pay me a good amount when i sent him videos with my face in them. as much as that terrified me, i felt like i needed the money, and i went with it. i got more and more uncomfortable with it, but i went with it. the whole time, i thought this person was a woman (that’s what they told me to throw me off their scent), but about a year ago, i found out it was a guy from my high school, who’d had a crush on me since eighth grade and whose advances i had always been EXTREMELY uncomfortable with, who i was repulsed at having him see me that way. i forgot he had followed my tumblr. i felt physically sick and deeply unsafe. but when he confessed it to me i just told him i was relieved it was him and not a stranger because i was TERRIFIED he’d leak my pics and videos if i got upset. he still messages me and i’m still scared to piss him off to any degree. every time he does i want to die. i feel so weak because everyone on my instagram is sharing their stories as sexual assault survivors and i can’t share mine because 1. it’s really not real sexual assault and 2. i’m too weak and scared. sorry if this makes no sense i’m a little drunk i’m just. UGH. i already feel so empty my mental health is already slipping and i don’t know how much longer i can afford my zoloft and i just feel worthless and i don’t know how to make myself feel again

@ccb July 04, 2020

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@SupernaturalSyGuyIsTIred July 04, 2020

I have no clue what to say about that…. If you can backtrack and get the evidence of this, do it. Go after his sick butt. After that report and block him.

@ccb July 04, 2020

I have no clue what to say about that…. If you can backtrack and get the evidence of this, do it. Go after his sick butt. After that report and block him.

i have a minor amount of evidence (i deleted most of it so nobody else would find it), but i don’t want it to be more public than it needs to be. if my parents found out about this, i don’t think they’d ever see me the same way again, and we’re finally starting to get along the past few years

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@saor_illust July 04, 2020

oh my god i'm so sorry about that charlotte

big hugs @ fren

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