Haha at the beginning of last year I did 1 push-up so you still beat me

mood

BIG MOOD

That just means you got to step up your game sweetie! I know you can do that!

Yeah… one problem. Where the fuck do I find time for it???

I don't know,

Exactly. and it's kinda hard to do pushups when you have to babysit cuddly/whiney/busy toddler.

ghhhhhhhhhh this is Complicated

i'm considering being fwb with a friend just because i haven't been with anyone since like july and i'm touch starved asf but i don't know exactly what my relationship with julian is. like yea we're technically just qpps but we literally talk abt kissing each other all the time and i've written several poems to and about him and he's gna write about me too and yesterday he hinted that he'd probably propose to me someday but i don't know how serious he was being
but also he's on the other goddamn side of the continent and he can't tend to my touch-starvedness and idk if it would be cheating but i also don't wanna ask him cuz then it might get weird and he's bad with this stuff i DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO??????

(i'm accepting advice if anyone has any)

Talk to your QPP?? Like literally straight up just ask what he thinks about it and what both of your boundaries are. Sure, that conversation is gonna be a tough one but for you to get the information you want, it has to happen. Be clear and specific so there's no miscommunication between you two.

Haha at the beginning of last year I did 1 push-up so you still beat me

Lol still better than me. I can’t even do one

ghhhhhhhhhh this is Complicated

i'm considering being fwb with a friend just because i haven't been with anyone since like july and i'm touch starved asf but i don't know exactly what my relationship with julian is. like yea we're technically just qpps but we literally talk abt kissing each other all the time and i've written several poems to and about him and he's gna write about me too and yesterday he hinted that he'd probably propose to me someday but i don't know how serious he was being
but also he's on the other goddamn side of the continent and he can't tend to my touch-starvedness and idk if it would be cheating but i also don't wanna ask him cuz then it might get weird and he's bad with this stuff i DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO??????

(i'm accepting advice if anyone has any)

Talk to your QPP?? Like literally straight up just ask what he thinks about it and what both of your boundaries are. Sure, that conversation is gonna be a tough one but for you to get the information you want, it has to happen. Be clear and specific so there's no miscommunication between you two.

oh.
ok ur right. it's just that he's really bad with talking about his feelings and i didn't wanna ruin anything that might've been happening in his head.
also i'm not rlly attracted to the friend that much but my god i need intimacy of any kind or i'll combust

my mother forced me to go back in the closet last august and she is currently treating my situation as if i am a recovering drug addict. and she won't let me go to a fandom expo because it's really gay which i just found out. i am so fucking angry

i stan that entire rant and e is a big piece of shit for treating your girlfriend like that, drop her immediately

i am currently bitterly listening to girls/girls/boys while looking through gay stuff on pinter and glaring at my oblivious parents from the corner of the room
fuck man i really wanted to go to the thing but i can't and it's all because my mother seems to thinks I'M ADDICTED TO BEING GAY OR SOME SHIT

Im totally dropping E, my girlfriend is so sweet and E is just gonna act like a b*tch because I didn't return her feelings. And girls/girls/boys is a great song. Sorry you couldn't go to that thing. My mum seems to think the same as me for some reason.

yeah. my mom is being a bitch today too

Im totally dropping E, my girlfriend is so sweet and E is just gonna act like a b*tch because I didn't return her feelings. And girls/girls/boys is a great song. Sorry you couldn't go to that thing. My mum seems to think the same as me for some reason.

yeah. my mom is being a bitch today too

Big mood, my mum literally everyday.

i'm gna cry or something haha. and im working on this shitty free online excel course that she made me take bc she thinks it'll help me get a job for some goddamn reason

Im totally dropping E, my girlfriend is so sweet and E is just gonna act like a b*tch because I didn't return her feelings. And girls/girls/boys is a great song. Sorry you couldn't go to that thing. My mum seems to think the same as me for some reason.

yeah. my mom is being a bitch today too

Big mood, my mum literally everyday.

i'm gna cry or something haha. and im working on this shitty free online excel course that she made me take bc she thinks it'll help me get a job for some goddamn reason

Join the club, i've been crying lol, and big oof for that online excel course. If my mum did that I think I would never leave my room again.

joke's on you i sleep on a foldable couch in the living room/kitchen because we rented a basement from a relative because we moved to this goddamn country 4 yrs ago and are still trynna get a house. so i don't have a room to leave. which is most of the reason we fight so much bc we clash personalities and opinions on everythin

Im totally dropping E, my girlfriend is so sweet and E is just gonna act like a b*tch because I didn't return her feelings. And girls/girls/boys is a great song. Sorry you couldn't go to that thing. My mum seems to think the same as me for some reason.

yeah. my mom is being a bitch today too

Big mood, my mum literally everyday.

i'm gna cry or something haha. and im working on this shitty free online excel course that she made me take bc she thinks it'll help me get a job for some goddamn reason

Join the club, i've been crying lol, and big oof for that online excel course. If my mum did that I think I would never leave my room again.

joke's on you i sleep on a foldable couch in the living room/kitchen because we rented a basement from a relative because we moved to this goddamn country 4 yrs ago and are still trynna get a house. so i don't have a room to leave. which is most of the reason we fight so much bc we clash personalities and opinions on everythin

Wow, that must suck

haha yeah it really does

i'm tempted to do something reckless. like bruise my wrists again. it's not like they ever notice

Hey, what about drawing on your wrists?

smudges , so no
and bruising has a better pain than cutting and it goes away after like five days so idc
i'd go do it rn but i can't make myself get up bc executive dysfunction
i'm way past the point of caring anyway

sorry
i have depression with a hair trigger and i've had a very shitty day, this is after a whole ass day of fighting with my parents

sorry guys, i'll stop talking about it if it bothers you

my mom has been talking for ten minutes about needing a plan before i get a job and how i need all this extra stuff to even get considered and then she finished with "i always seem like the bad guy" like what a classic guilt-trip method even mother gothel said that shit and she's canonically abusive fuck with that