I know exactly what you're feeling. The pressure that the people around you put on you is absolutely unbearable, and then you feel guilty about being any better, but you still want to be better and there goes an extra ton of pressure coming from yourself. I know hard it is to deal with especially when it's more than just grades.
The only thing I could say to you, honeslty, is take one step back. Just take a step back and take a breather. You're doing amazing, you really are. Where you are is good. I know it doesn't feel like it but that's because those good times will come. Everything you're doing now is a step in the right direction for you. Only you, because in these really awful moments you have to take a moment and take care of you.
I know how hard that is, but try to acknowledge that yeah, you're not perfect in your mother's eyes, but you are doing eveything you can and that is all that matters. And if she doesn't get that it isn't your fault.
I'll say it again, take a breather, look around at the incredible things you're doing, and just keep going. It does get better.
lock Your personal venting space.
I really really really wish I didn't relate to that, and I'll probs be back around midnight for context before I cry myself to sleep, again.
aggressively throws love in all of your general directions
Y’all need it.
Like I said before, I'll be back with context, maybe, but overall I've spent a good portion of the last hour(?) crying.
group
I really wanted to tell and scream but I'm ok
My parents want me to get a job but they also won't let me
How the hecc does that work?!
OOF….
Double oof…
I'm upset with my aunt. She decided to go through my phone and call history. Then she comes across the calls I had with my bf. Let's call him Aidan.
So she started asking questions and I'm getting uncomfortable. "Why do you seem uncomfortable, [insert my birth name here]?"
She wants me to block his number, but I can't do that. I don't know if he's upset with me or not since I can't freaking talk to him. Aidan left in a hurry and I'm wondering if I said something to upset him or not…
I knew it was a bad idea to call him in the first place but I really had to…
Can you text him? A simple message explaining why you can't call him would clear things up. Then all you'd have to do is delete the message thread after.
I'm not supposed to text him or contact him in any way. I've explained it to him though. I still text him I'm just a bit pissed that my aunt went through my phone.
Aww well at least he knows the situation. And I bet it's hella annoying to have someone look through your phone. Does your aunt just not want you to have a bf? Or why else does she want you to block him?
He lives across the country and she's never met him. He's also a few(2) years older than me. she also doesn't want me to date.
Oh wow that's terrible. Hmm does your aunt live with you or is she visiting..?
I live with her
ksofkjwoekdnvj I'm sorry I can't offer advice besides going behind your aunt's back and texting him in private… :((
It's okay thank you anyways!
(you could even dm him on Insta or other social media…)
Neither of us have social media and I'm generally offline (it's a wonder I'm on here now…)
I'm pretty sure messenger doesn't work offline either. So Im just going to text behind her back
@IWasTheMoonButYouChasedTheStars Do you have google docs? Cause you could share one with them, and msg each other there! All you have to do is use different color fonts, or different fonts.
Hey starry(it's Sebastian!)
I have docs but I can't get onto it
(Knew I recognized you from somewhere!!)
Why can't you use docs?
I don't know
The app won't open…
uhm…… delete and redownload? Check if it's disabled? Update it?
Sync your google account?
Like I said, I'm generally offline. I can't do anything with just data
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