All my roleplays are dead please give me attention // closed oxo (I'll do more though)

"I'm sorry… I-I'm sorry… I'm so s-sorry…" Aiki whispered apology after apology, burying their face in their hands as they trembled and sobbed. He was still stuck in his own memories, although Rosalind presumably didn't care to see them. She was just glad to see them suffering and upset, even if she didn't know the reason.

He found himself feeling like there was something over his mouth, like the muzzle that had been put on him when he was just a kid. Their throat was starting to tighten and their ears flattened back against their head as they gasped for breath. Despite Rosalind's assurances, he definitely felt trapped. They didn't think it was below her to lie and keep them around to use for her own purposes.

Aiki looked up at Farah weakly, clutching at their throat as they drew in harsh, shallow breaths, and tears rolled down their pale cheeks. He shakily moved over to her and clung tightly to her, burying his face in her shoulder. "B-But I should've—should've b-been—stronger—l-like you…" They managed to choke out. "I-I just… s—s-she kept talking about—h—h-how I'm n-never gonna see Eiji again…" He sobbed a bit harder, feeling guilty and still terrified.

Aiki whimpered shakily, keeping their face hidden for now. "I-I just… she… s-she wanted to know about my power…" He whispered weakly. "I-I think I told her more than I should've, I… I should've lied or something, I dunno… left something out…? B-But I guess she would've found out either way, even if she needed to use force… I'm weak… weak and stupid."

Aiki sighed weakly, fresh tears welling up in their eyes. "I-I just… I feel like a dumb little kid… all I do is whine about being homesick and wanting to see my brother and my parents, and get upset over stupid things, and get taken advantage of b-because I wasn't careful enough despite your warnings… t-this is all my fault, and I'm s-sorry… I'm so sorry… I'm sorry that I drained your energy… it'll be a little while until you recover, I'm afraid." He laughed dryly; humorlessly. "That's what I end up doing to myself all the time… a-and plus the hypoglycemia…" They trailed off.

Aiki was growing tired now as well, and Farah's assurances were slowly but surely helping them to relax. Besides, they were stuck in this room until the Cryo-Inducement Veil was removed anyway. "I tried… I-I tried to drain her energy instead…" He whispered. "B-But I don't have very good control when I'm taking someone's energy other than my own, since I don't practice that… understandably, most people don't want to have their energy drained. It's not very fun… b-but anyway, when she… when she pushed you towards me, I couldn't… I couldn't keep it on her… it just switched to whoever was closest, a-and I was super upset, so… s-so I couldn't get it to stop. It's hard to control when I'm not stable and focused…"

"O-Okay, but… but after this, I'm sure you don't want to have your energy drained again…" Aiki said softly, moving to support Farah a bit more since he knew how tired she must be. "I'm sure we'll figure something out later, but for now, do you want me to call Saul?"

"Alright, if you're sure…" Aiki sighed and accepted the phone, managing to locate Saul's number and call it. He held the phone up to his ear and waited for an answer before he started to speak. "Um… hi? This is Aiki… I-I'm with Farah in Rosalind's office, and… and there's the ice thing on the door, I think, so we can't leave…"

"Um… F-Farah is with me in Rosalind's office. Rosalind left to… um… I-I can't remember if she said what she left for." Aiki replied, his voice still sounding like he'd been crying. "Farah is okay, she's… s-she's not injured. She's just really tired. That's why I'm calling instead, um… on her phone since I don't have your number or anything." They were still pretty uneasy, and it was hard to keep their voice even. "And… and I think there's that ice thing on the door to keep us in, so you can't just walk in here."

"Well, she's… she's really tired, like I said, s-so…" Aiki glanced down when Farah spoke. "Ah, are you sure? Okay… um… she wants to talk to you, so I'm passing the phone to her now." He held the phone up to her ear so she wouldn't have to expend energy to hold it.

Aiki rubbed at their eyes a bit while Farah spoke, trying to pull themself together before Saul arrived. He knew he'd have to explain what had happened and why Farah was so tired all of a sudden. They sighed softly and curled their tail around themself, rubbing their ears a bit as a nervous habit that helped calm them down.

Aiki nodded along with the instructions and shakily got to his feet, putting the phone on speaker and setting it on the ground so he could do as he was instructed without making Farah expend extra energy. They took a few deep breaths, keeping out of range of the veil to wait for it to be expelled.

Aiki unlocked the door as soon as he was sure that the veil was gone. They pulled it open to see Saul and moved aside so that he could come into the room. "She got rid of the veil, s-so we should be okay now…" He said softly.

Aiki closed the door behind Saul and headed over to sit beside him and Farah, fidgeting with their hands and looking guilty and upset still. "I-I… had to use my power with her energy." He said softly, looking around at the scorched items in the office.

Aiki cowered at the look, turning their ears back with a shaky whine. "I-I didn't mean to! I… R-Rosalind was j-just…" He could feel his throat starting to tighten again and he brought one hand up to it, trembling. "I h-had to… she… I-I tried to use it on Rosalind instead, b-but she pushed Farah closer and— a-and I c-can't— control my p-power very well— when I-I'm using it on s— s-somebody else…" They choked and coughed, tears rolling down their cheeks again. "E-Ended up— t— t-taking from whoever— w-was closest… I'm s… I'm s-sorry… I'm s-so sorry… please…"

Aiki drew their knees up to their chest and hugged them tightly, gasping for breath and trembling uncontrollably. He hid his face as he sobbed, curling up to try and make himself small. They still felt sick with guilt and they didn't want to be here. He desperately just wanted to go home so this would all be some horrible nightmare. "S-She keeps calling me 'it' and 'creature' a-and I c— c-can't do it anymore… I'm s-sorry…" They whispered.