Gay fluff (1/1 oh this is closed. Stalk if you want :)

(I…)

(Okay…first of all I’m sorry.)

(Hm? Why?)

(Secondly, since New Years I’ve been a complete mess. Things with my parents aren’t good. I’ve been distant with Sam and all the rest of my friends. I have mental breakdowns almost every night. I’m tired constantly and stay up late just thinking about how to die without hurting the people around me. I’ve been such a bitch to you these past couple days and I know you’re going through shit with your dad and I’m sorry I’m so sorry. I want to help but I don’t know how and everything seems just out of my reach including you and I love you and I’m so stupid for pushing you away I’m so fucking stupid I’m sorry I’m sorry)

(Oh Clauida… please, take a deep breath and hold it for a couple seconds. Exhale slowly when you need to. Please listen to me. You will absolutely be missed if something happens to you. It’s perfectly normal to get distant when you’ve gone through a bad experience, there’s no reason to apologize for it. I urge you to go reconnect with Sam and your friends. Nothing’s out of your reach. You are incredible and talented and I love you very much.)

But I don't want to..I don't want to keep going. Everything's gone to shit and I can't do anything about it. I can't even find the words to explain how bad all of this has gotten. I couldn't even tell you until today and the idea of telling anyone else terrifies me. I thought it was getting better…I thought I was going to be okay..

Oh and if I don't respond to you or anyone for more then 48 hours I'm probably dead. Okay goodnight!

wHCLAUDIA

I said if

dON’T IF ME I WAKE UP TO THAT

IMA GONNA BE CONCERND

Well you shouldn’t be
I’m not dead

I had a dream that I almost got run over by a truck but then the truck disappeared before it hit me and now I’m mad.

kmart

Hhhhhh

I was! You actually worried me, okay?

Yeah but here’s the thing. I wouldn’t go just die in the night, that would never work and it wouldn’t be a good idea because everyone’s asleep and theres hardly any cars on the street at night where I live. If anything I would probably overdose if I wanted to die during the day. I have spent hours thinking these things over and dying in the night is just stupid.

oKAY BUT I DIDN’T KNOW THAT, HONEY

I WAS WORRIED I THOUGHT YOU HAD ODed OR CUT YOUR NECK OR SOMETHIG OKAY

Okay well sorry I had you worried :/

Hhh

It’s fine. I love you

It’s all good. I was reading Shakespeare last night and that shit is funny

Dude Shakespear is awesome. What were you reading?

Romeo and Juliet

We just finished studying that in my english class

Ughrmeeje I prefer Julius Cesar or however you spell his name

Hamlet is good too

I haven’t read it but I plan to.

Oh and a midsummers night dream is really good

Ooh I’ll have to look for that one. I have his complete works all in one giant ass book, sooo

That’s cool and Shakespeare is good cause it costs like a dollar

I got the whole book for twenty bucks on sale from BooksaMillion

Niceee

I knowwsw

There was an Edgar Allen Poe one for the same price and I wanted it so bad

That dude is spooky