"Please let me in…I can hear you crying…I'm sorry…It's just I got so angry when you wouldn't talk to me I-… I'm sorry about my anger issues. It's just…I'm your boyfriend and hopefully something more someday and you are supposed to tell me what's wrong. If you don't I can't help…"
Skye couldn't bring himself to move, he hadn't properly grieved, and he didn't know how to deal with it now.
Tears started to fall from his eyes, "Please…open the door Skye…"
Skye eventually moved, pulling the door open, needing someone to show him how to move on.
He tackled him in a hug while his leg kicked the door closed, "I'm so sorry…I love you sky you know that right?"
Skye melted into his arms, breaking down in a fit of sobs completely alien to his personality.
He wiped away all the tears that fell and kissed his cheek. "Please talk to me…"
Skye shook his head, burying his face in the other's chest.
"Why?…" he stroked his hair holding him close
I-I don't know….. he said softly, It's like I can't….
Like you're mute? he kissed his head.
N-No… I-I just can't find the words…. he said, the only reason I'msaying it now, is because thinking is different than speaking….
True so think what you want to say if you can't then show me Nick suggested.
Skye wasn't sure how to communicate it, but he tried, and it came out a mess of imagery, grief, sadness, alone, and being overwhemed.
He didn't think nor say anything all he did was comfort and hold him because right now that is all Sky needs.
Skye relaxed in his arms, silently calming down.
"I got you…" he rocked back and forth, "It's okay I got you…"
Skye let himself sob as the other held him, unsure of what else he could do.
Someone had knocked on the door, "Not now!" he yelled, "Sir your parents are here…"
Skye flinched at that, pullling away, You should go…
Can we go together, I want them to meet you, even if you might be a mess you're still my mess. He smiled putting their foreheads together.
Skye shook his head, Not now please…. let me calm down first….
Okay come down when you're ready. Give me a heads up when you are okay? he smiled pulling him into a hug before heading for the door.
Yeah… he said, brushing away his tears as the other headed downstairs.
"Mom, Dad!" he smiled and tackled them in a hug. "How have you been?"
Skye eventually got up to take a shower, careful of the cuts he'd gotten the day before.
Zoltan had talked with his parents for a while, catching up on life. You okay up there?
I'm good… came the reply, I promise I'm fine.. just give me time to get ahold of myself…
Okay, don't hurt yourself or try anything or I will come up there okay? he smiled to himself as his parents where talking.
I won't… he said, getting out of the shower and toweling off.
