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In Love With Rest Itself (OxO // Closed // Mature // Stalkers Welcome)

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“For bones and flesh are not eternal,
For humans are born but are not immortal.
For living a life can be frustrating,
For death still lingers without any resting.
For emotions can change faster than wind,
For no one alive could count up your sins.
For your corpse may not be so beautiful,
Your soul is your beauty, so pure and colorful.”

So…
Yeah.
I don’t really have a plot in mind yet but I want it to start with something along the lines of this—

A college-aged suicidal boy/girl attempts to kill themself only to find that they aren’t able to. The goddess (yes, goddess) of death, Thanatos, shows up to tell them exactly why. She will only allow death to do its job when it’s the right time and the right place for that person or when she finds that the person endearing enough to be guided directly to hell. You, unfortunately or perhaps fortunately, don’t fit any of the two categories…

And we’ll see where we’ll go from there.

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Not a lot of rules other than decent English, swearing and cursing is definitely allowed, and anything 18+ or borderline NSFW is currently not allowed but that could change. Please ask me if you have any questions.

Oh, and have fun.
And I think that’s it
:D

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@Fraust

Hellooo

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Oiiiii, hi!
Yes, this the roleplay featuring that Thanatos XD

@Fraust

Oooooh
Hello! Would you mind if I joined? :0
I would probably use Cas lol
He seems to fit that category and also I like to roleplay him with gods apparently aha

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Yeah, sure!
Btw, one question first, what are your triggers?
This seems to be an important question for a roleplay like this one.

@Fraust

I don't have any personally! (I don't like things being shoved under fingernails, but that's mostly an image thing and probably wouldn't come up?)
Any that I should avoid for you?

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Nope. I don’t mind anything at all really.
And oh, in case it does go to that point, you have any limits to how much affection is to be shown?
(By that I mean you wanna keep it SFW or go to somewhere borderline NSFW?)

@Fraust

Anything is fine with me. I can write full on NSFW if you wanted to lol, but I don't think it's likely to happen with Cas
Cas is also gay so we'll have to figure that out oops-

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Ah right!
… that… that last part is likely going to be a problem XD
We’ll figure something out, I… I think?

@Fraust

Probably lol
I mean, Coral and my roleplay didn't exactly go as planned lmfao
I'm sure we can figure something out?

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Or should I change plans and bring Hypnos in instead…

@Fraust

👀
You totally could lol

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Oh! I’ve got an idea! Though we do have to start first…
Ah, right.
You might need to be the one to start before, well, attempts.

@Fraust

Alrighty! Cas didn't go to college so I'm just give stick him at nineteen
Should we do this in pms or just hang out here? I have a feeling there's going to be a lot of trigger warnings for potential stalkers lol
I'm totally fine with either

@PrettyLittlePyro

(Dang, I missed it. Please don't do it in the pms, I would like to stalk! :)

@Fraust

(I'll go ahead and write the starter then aha)

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( @PrettyLittlePyro You wanna do one? I’ll have to make Hypnos take this one so Thanatos’ still available if you want…?)

@Fraust

"I can't do this anymore…" Cas whispered to himself, tears pooling in his eyes and spilling over onto his pale cheeks. "I'm s-sorry, Nix… go and find somebody who can take care of you. I left the door open." The cat yowled at him on distress, but couldn't reach him. Cas bit down hard on his wrist, gasping softly at the intense pain. This was what he wanted. He couldn't back down now. He dug through the cabinets in his tiny kitchen until he found a small, sharp steak knife. He hesitated before pressing it into his skin and digging down, dragging the blade up the length of his arm. He vomited in the sink, shaking violently and struggling to stay conscious. He couldn't pass out. He had to make sure he wouldn't survive this time. He looked down at the deep gash in his arm, which was pouring out crimson and staining the white floors. He choked back his sobs, continuing to ignore his panicked cat wailing at him to stop. He took the blade with shaking hands and cut deep into his other arm, gouging a similar gash. Soon after, he collapsed onto the floor, his blood pooling around him. Nix ran out the door, yowling as loud as he could to try and get someone's attention.

@Fraust

(It's a bit graphic oops-)

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As Cas’ conscience would slow fade, a black cloud of smoke appeared within the room his body was in. A suited figure soon walked out and looked down at the boy, pathetically. They knelt down to touch the boy’s body, softly inspecting their presumably dead body.
”You cannot die yet,” she whispered with the softness of the wind. ”Your life is still worth the shot,” she whispered again, her voice echoing around the room.
She laid her index finger on his body, knocking his consciousness back together so the real conversation would actually get started.

@PrettyLittlePyro

( @PrettyLittlePyro You wanna do one? I’ll have to make Hypnos take this one so Thanatos’ still available if you want…?)

(Sure, I'd like that! Just to warn you, though, I won't be on much this week.)

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(I can start later, don’t worry. I’ll start it once you’re more ready Hannah)

@PrettyLittlePyro

(Okee! Thank you!)

@Fraust

Cas groaned softly as he stirred, soon peering up at the unfamiliar figure weakly. "H-Hello…?" He coughed a bit, wincing. "Am… am I dead? Did I do it this time?" He asked as he looked around. "Fuck… I'm still in my apartment… and everything hurts…" He sighed, tears stinging his eyes as he ran his fingers through his hair. "I-I'm not dead, am I?"

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”No. Unfortunately, or perhaps fortunately for you, fate has not pronounced you dead yet,” the woman stated. Her eyes showed the color of pitch black with what looked like skulls as irises. She glanced at the boy before sitting down beside him.
”Why did you want to die?” she asked almost as naturally as she breathed. It seemed to be a question that death would ask someone, of course.

@Fraust

Cas rubbed at his eyes, exhaling shakily. "No one fucking wants me for anything but my body. My dad never wanted me, and I ran away when I was twelve. He apparently died a year later and I lived on the streets until I turned eighteen last year, and then I got this apartment. I-I can't hold a job, I can't pay my rent, all my boyfriends have just pretended to care about me so they could use me as their fucking sex toy, and then they all left. The only one who cares about me is my fucking cat. I can't live alone anymore. I can't deal with this shit anymore. I have tried to do this so many times now, and this is the first time I would have succeeded. Why did you stop me?" He asked weakly. He looked broken and empty, and he clearly didn't care anymore. He didn't want to be here anymore.

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The female figure listened carefully to his story. Of course, she’d heard similar stories all her immortal life but not all sounded as hopeless as this one did. She turned when the question was given. She went silent for a moment…
”You still have hope for yourself. Even if you don’t want to think so,” she said after a short while.
”You want… you need someone who would be there for you, right?” she asked in her cold demeanor. Who can really her for not being super genuine, she is the goddess of death after all and going through these kinds of conversations ever since humans existed was a nuisance in itself.

@Fraust

Cas drew his knees up to his chest and hugged them tightly. "I-I… well… yeah, of course I want that, but I know I've got no chance… who would want to genuinely date someone like me anyway? I'm obviously a mess in like, every way, I'm poor, I can't do basic skills, I just… I'm useless. I'm honestly useless to anyone and everyone, and that's the truth. I have nothing to offer other than my problems and my winning personality, which apparently aren't that popular. I'm not sure who you are, really, not I really don't think there's much you can do to help…"

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The figure listened patiently. The boy didn’t want to give himself a chance… she had to change that. She turned to the boy and smiled softly.
”What if there was someone who’s willing to do that? What if there was someone who’s willing to go through all of that distress with you? Would you consider living again?” she asked, hoping to both heaven and hell that the boy’s answer would be as she wanted, other wise she would have to utilize plan B which she didn’t want to.

@Fraust

"W-Who would be willing to do that?" Cas asked softly, rubbing at his teary eyes. "I… I-I mean… I guess if someone was really willing to put up with me, I could try to give it a go…" He sighed, fidgeting a bit with nerves. "I just really don't feel like I can come back from this… obviously it's gotten really bad…" Cas stared blankly at the floor. "Nix must've run out to get help… he'll probably be back soon. Unless he took my advice and left me, but I really hope he didn't since I'm apparently not allowed to die."
(Would she have healed the wounds or just stopped them from bleeding?)