Logan was tangled up in the sheets, uncomfortable but he really couldn't be bothered to change that, not when he had exhausted himself with his thoughts. His coffee had been discarded on the night stand, half drank. Probably not a great thing to have drunk right before his fitful nap considering his worry was only growing. Had he scared Jackson off? Logan knew he hadn't really wanted marriage but ever since he had met Jackson, he had started to entertain that idea. Of settling down with some one undeniably loved and living a peaceful life.
Kinda want a demon and human ship so...help?
Jackson sat carefully on the edge of the bed, watching Logan while chewing on his lip. He wanted this. He wanted this so bad. So why was it suddenly so hard to face the reality that he could actually do it?
Logan awoke with a groan when he felt the weight of the bed shift. His eyes fluttered open, rimmed with red as he rubbed away the sleep. Finally able to get his vision to focus, he found Jackson sitting on the bed. He silently scooted over to his side and rested his head against his shoulder, "how was the walk?" He asked softly, stifling a yawn as he toyed with Jackson's hand
"Cold. But I kind of expected that." He hummed softly, watching Logan play with his hand. "Sorry for waking you up, I didn't mean to."
Logan shook his head "wasn't sleeping, just uh..resting, can't really sleep with that much coffee in my system anyways." he gave a small smile and wrapped Jackson in one of the many blankets strewn across the bed.
"Well still. I didn't mean to disturb you." Jackson leaned against him heavily, mentally exhausted but not wanting to sleep.
Logan shifted around so that Jackson laying on top of him, cradling his body close. "I'd be happy to wake up to you beside every single day of my life, hon." He murmured, running his fingers through Jackson's hair
"Do you mean that? Or are you just saying it to make me feel better." He mumbled with a frown, nuzzling closer to Logan.
Logan glanced down at him and offered a soft smile. "Both. I really do want to have a life with you in it Jackson." He replied, nuzzling back. "I'm sorry about before, I didn't expect that to be brought up." He huffed a sigh. "I never really wanted marriage with any of my previous partners. It wasn't something we talked about or really shared an interest in so I never gave it much thought. But with you, it's different. I can see myself actually happy with you, living a life that makes me happy."
"Really? You'd…really do that?" Jackson brightened up a little, looking up at Logan. "Don't lie to me, this is serious and I don't want my heart broken."
"I have no reason to lie to you, sweetheart. Nor would I ever about something this important." He pressed a kiss to Jackson's brow "and yes, I really would."
Jackson smiled a little, relieved. "Thank you, bean. I'm sorry for doubting you, I know I shouldn't have."
"it's alright, hon. I know I didn't react the greatest way possible. It probably looked like I never wanted to marry." He tested his head again Jackson's shoulder
"Yeah, it kind of did and I panicked a little. I've never had a good example of marriage and to think that the only person I've ever considered diving into that unknown with didn't want to, I kind of shut down."
Logan's eyes softened as he pulled Jackson closer, gathering all the blankets around them. "I never meant to make you doubt a future together, love." He murmured, pressing a kiss to Jackson's hair. "Marriage was always kind of scary to me, especially when I considered the people I kept around. Having such a tight bond with somone like that at the time, instilled a kind of fear I hated for a long time." He looked down at him and smiled softly "until now."
"Well, that makes me feel better." Jackson relaxed into Logan's chest, feeling his heart settle as he recognized his future could still come true.
"me too." He murmured, rubbing Jackson's back. "So Tokyo huh?" He said after a while with a laugh, tilting his head curiously at his beloved.
"He was kidding. He really doesn't know and even then he was wrong." Jackson rolled his eyes with a chuckle. "But that's all you're getting. I'm not saying anything more."
"wait so we're not going to Tokyo for out honeymoon?" He pouted and buried his face into Jackson's neck. "But baaabe, you know how much I hate being left in the dark, especially about something that important…please, at least just the place?" He pleaded, nuzzling Jackson's cheek and pressing small kisses to his face
"Nope! I won't tell! All you get is that it's warm but not tropical. But that's all I'm telling you! We're not even engaged yet, give it time."
"that can literally be anywhere!" Logan cried out, reaching over and taking a sip of his coffee. "Hm, true but you know how impatient I am." He laughed softly and cuddled close to Jackson. "But I'm willing to wait any amount of time for you."
"I'm holding you to that. Because now I have to rework everything." He huffed dramatically before giggling. "But I'll get through it, I'll be fine and we'll be happy."
"I mean maybe not everything." Logan mused as he played with Jackson's hair. "All I know is that we're going to get married eventually and go to warm place for our honeymoon."
"Yep. That's pretty much the basis. But that's for us to work out later. Let me do my work first."
He sighed softly bit reluctantly nodded "alright, I trust you." He pressed a kiss to Jackson's nose and glanced over at the clock on the nightstand. "And you complain about Jay keeping secrets." He teased, gently nudging Jackson off so that he could change into something more comfortable
"Hey, I only complain because he deserves to be complained to. He can keep his secrets but that doesn't mean I'm happy about it." Jackson laughed, snuggling into the warm spot Logan left behind.
Logan gave Jackson a pointed look over his shoulder "exactly what you're doing to me, dearest." Logan replied, disappearing into the bathroom to change. He came back out in colorful fuzzy PJs and settled back down beside Jackson.
Jackson instantly curled back into his side, snuggling close. "If you hated it that much, you'd do something about it. But until you do, I shall continue to pester you with my thoughts."
"I'd have it no other way, my heart." Logan laugh and ran his hands through his beloved's hair. He leaned in close and pressed a soft kiss to Jackson's lips. "So when are you proposing, hm?"
"That's for me to know and you to find out. It'd be no fun if I told you and ruined the surprise. Give it some time, I'll propose when I'm good and ready." He finished his sentence off with a tap to Logan's nose.