Small being of water, undeep. Low land partially covered by water.

17

Female

Pebble, because she always carries a pebble in her breast-pocket.

Green/Grey-ish

caucasian

pale, white. Tans quick, burns quicker.
no freckles. Skin is clear and no visible scars besides the scar on her neck.

Hourglass, rather thick thighs which she loves. Very thin fingers.

Her service dog Abby, which is /always/ with her.
the velvet green scrunchie she always wears around her wrist like a bracelet.

1.56 m

brown/black. Looks black without (sun)light.

Silky, almost straight down just below her shoulders. Likes to wear it in a bun on top of her head with a golden scrunchie.

Afraid of dying, making mistakes (even small ones), getting seperated from Abby.

Is diagnosed with Autism, Asperger. This has a lot of impact on her day-to-day life; trouble with school. Control-freak, but too overwhelmed to actually work on things.
Scared to order/buy things; people might not approve.
Has trouble communicating to people when she wants to be left alone. people-pleaser, wants to be liked because people always disliked her because she was 'weird'.
Hard time telling people 'no', so she's easily walked over.
A leg-bouncer.
Scratches herself when stressed, but it almost never leaves scars.
Uncomfortable around people, especially when they get close.

some people don't believe she's autistic because she's quite well-functioning; got her degree, doesn't isolate herself for months at a time (though weeks at a time does happen).
People tend to judge and be like 'But you're not doing anything weird like babbling or screeching and you're not a living calculator?!'

Her service dog has learned to sense panic and anxiety attacks and helps her calm down. She's also learned to push her hands/arms away from her when she starts scratching.
'Blocks' people who get to close to Fen by standing/sitting etc between them (front, side and back).

-Scratching her thighs when stressed, even with clothing on.
-Wiping her hands on her shirt (they get sweaty when she's around people; nerves, expectations etc).
-always shakes her head when having a negative thought

Random;
The kind of girl who wears sweaters two sizes too big, loves being cozy and is often found hugging a small pillow or animal.
Lovessss animals, wants to work with them. Later in life Fen would love to train service dogs and show people how much of a help they are.
Loves fireworks, though hates the noise.
Draws and paints a lot, mostly birds and hands. Also makes fluid paintings.

positive;
Has a lot of empathy, cares a lot about people and their well-being, because she knows what it's like when people don't.
Her servicedog has helped her a lot to make contact with people, as long as they talk about her dog.
She's very open about her autism if the other person is kind and understanding about it.
Likes to have her room tidy, but only cleans and organizes once a month (more would be overwhelming).

negative/grey;
When overwhelmed she tends to lash out, be mean so people would leave her alone. Always regrets this after.
Tends to lose things like her keys or the cap of her waterbottle.
Completely freaks out when one of her scrunchies are missing.
Can get scared when people ask her to show her art, really wants people to love it.
Can take criticism, though does think about it for at least 3 days analyzing it.

Reads a lot and draws. Like to paint. Things get messy sometimes and she likes to take long baths to clean herself.

Very broad imagination, good at telling stories. Great memory; like a lot of autistic people she remembers very small details, but has trouble seeing the bigger picture.

Her judgement can be very black/white; it's wrong or it's right. There's never a grey area.
Is hard on herself and pushes herself too much which leads to anxiety attacks.

Sells her paintings every once in a while.

Long baths, prefer cold ones. Painting, messing around with the colours. Cuddling with Abby.

Gold

Pancakes with fresh fruit

2b or not 2b- pencil Omar got her as a gift and the hummingbird patch on her backpack.

Golden retrievers or Aussie doodles

june 23th

Abby, her service dog. She's about three years old and finished her training 5 months ago.
She goes with Fen on public transport, into stores etc etc

https://nl.pinterest.com/ArtNouc/cats-whales-and-murder/fen/