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not okay (got told i have clinical anxiety today; anyone else?) Tw: anxiety

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Sooooooooo
I have asthma and I thought I was just having really weird asthma attacks
Nope! Turns out they are panic attacks, and I now have to get meds.
My eyes are swollen from crying
My best friend lives in MI, I live in KY and also I'm sorta in love with him (for reference, I'm a straight female and I'm 16; he's a straight male and he's sixteen. We met at a camp this summer, a little over 4 months ago)
He's the only one that makes me feel okay, and I'm gonna be able to see him next week cuz I'm going to see him on fall break but my parents took my phone so now I get to talk to him for barely 10 minutes in the day till then
But I'm supposed to be head over heels for the guy I'm actually talking to, Aaron.
Everyone expects me to be perfect, but I can't be
I told my parents I hate them last night when I was in the middle of a full breakdown
I can't do this anymore
I literally trashed my room
And then I admitted to being depressed
And they wouldn't let me be alone, I had to sleep in the room next to them
And my grades are gonna silp becuase i can't do anything hardly
And i had to go to the doc
And I was taken to the doc this morning and told i have anxiety
yeahhhhhh no durrrrrrr

I'm not asking for advice, I just wanna know I'm not the only one. Anyone else feel like their life is crumbling around them and all u can do is watch?

@cryptic-glitch

yeah. . .
i definitely get it
after extensive research i’ve tentatively self-diagnosed with OSDD
so
you def aren’t alone, but trust me, it gets better, my dear <3

lxbianxx

but yeah i get it

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Thanks. Sorry, I just feel like everyone is watching me like I'm about to explode
I really need to talk to Jacob, but instead… I HaVE cOUnSeLinG tOnIgHT :) yaYyYy

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@ElderGodSeeba petsbing bing 🐸
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Oh bestie, I've seen so many doctors it's not funny.
I understand where your coming from, I'm also 16, and mental illness at a young age is so much to take in, sometimes you explode. Its hard to move forward sometimes, and diagnosis can feel like they're holding you back, but you are strong,, and so much more that a pesky anxiety diagnosis. If you need someone to talk to, about therapists and doctors in general, don't feel like a stranger my dm are open.

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I love you so much! thank uuuuuu I needed to hear that, I will likely take you up on that.
I just don't wanna be looked at like I'm gonna lose it, but at the same time… i might lose it

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@CaseyJ group

I have general anxiety unclassified…whatever that means, didn't know till therapy today so like…

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Oh yay! Worry Buddies! @jacen-is-really-fackin-gay
Started the meds todayyyyy

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@CaseyJ group

I have been on meds (without knowing what for) for a month or so.

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Dang.
Its actually helping, but its not an easy road.

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@CaseyJ group

mhm, the meds make life a whole lot easier.

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@jacen-is-really-fackin-gay yeah, actually they do. how u doing, my friend?

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@CaseyJ group

WEll, honestly I am scared that my parents are going to like kill me (not literally) bc of how bad my grades are.

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Oh dang
How bad?

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@CaseyJ group

Uh D,D,C,B,C

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Maybe you could get tutoing, but tbh its hard to focus on grades when ur just trying to breathe

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@CaseyJ group

Right, but my problem is that..I fall asleep…everyday

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Oof why?

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@CaseyJ group

Well, side effect of meds and apparently I don't eat enough…says my parents, but yk I stay up all night so thats obv why.

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oh dang feel thaat

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@CaseyJ group

Shit- I have been like getting like these ticks…twitching thing..and its … frustrating to say the least.

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If i can ask, why do you twitch? is it a neurological problem? or like an anxiety thing?

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@CaseyJ group

Anxiety .. at least…that is what I think. I mean, its new.

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I have those too actually, really mild Tourettes and it comes out when i get anxious

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@CaseyJ group

So my heart stopped a bit ago, someone who like vanished from my life a year ago, is back…the last thing I said to him was that I still loved him-

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Oh gosh…
What are you gonna do?
DO you still love him?

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@CaseyJ group

Well, yes, we had a long conversation and 3 mental breakdowns later…uh..we are friends….ig..it hurts to be around him, but it hurts when I am not.

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I'm considering bringing up my feelings to Jacob ( my best friend, and the guy I'm in love with) actually.

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@CaseyJ group

I say you should test the waters before you leap

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@CaseyJ group

In other words, try hinting at it.