Thank you Pickles that means a lot

halp..? aha

family problems, and work, and system issues with friends, and children, and childhood friend problems, and a lot aha…

i have to baby sit my cousin, and any being under the age of 10 just, i can’t handle cause of _trauma and nina’s really fucking upset cause my friend like, broke her and everything is hitting at once i feel like i’m drowning-

Personally I just hate dealing with children because I'm scared of fucking them up the way I'm fucked up :DDDD
#PtSd

that’s why i can’t handle children, they trigger some ptsd shit for me and i just can’t-

_{Being raised in an abusive household did some shit to me y'all}

_{Being raised in an abusive household did some shit to me y'all}

^^^

_{When you've literally been looking forward to 2020 since you were in third grade because "everything is happening in 2020" {hard to explain, I've just always been hyped for 2020} and I just found out I'll have to spend the first moments of it completely alone}

I am going to momentarily interrupt to morn over the loss of the most eloquent masterpiece I have ever written. It is filled with raw emotion and heart breaking gut wrenching moments, truly, probably the best thing I have ever composed. This piece will never be seen, and never be read by any eye's but my own. I will share one quote because I am rather proud of it "I was Icarus flying on fragile wings of your time, then, out came the sun of your neglect."

You speak of mourning. Is it gone?

Yes, I deleted the entire thing because it could be used as blackmail against me.

Tfw you come home from work crying because you had a shit day, explain, in detail, why you had a shit day to your mother, and then she's just like "It could be worse" and makes you feel really stupid for crying over it and is undermining your problems and stress and aaaaAaaAAAH

Tfw you come home from work crying because you had a shit day, explain, in detail, why you had a shit day to your mother, and then she's just like "It could be worse" and makes you feel really stupid for crying over it and is undermining your problems and stress and aaaaAaaAAAH

Just because 'it could be worse' doesn't mean your feelings aren't valid, or that your day wasn't bad

bad days are bad days regardless of how many things made them bad, or how much 'worse'(an objective term when it comes to your mother's usage) they were.

Right? Like, my wrist is still hurting. I'm literally wearing a brace, and still, I swept the entire store, put a bunch of chairs up, had to pull down heavy boxes from shelves that are pretty high, etc, just because my assistant manager doesn't care I guess. And I had to help a group of seven people with two milkshakes (which are difficult and time consuming), and she flat out refused to help me even though she wasn't doing anything else

I almost just hurt my ankle. I’m in a flipping cast. I was walking and my ankle did the twisty thing and I was like HOW DID THAT HAPPEN!

Why do I suddenly want to dig out some old Barbies from under my bed and cut their hair

mood except doodle all over their faces instead of cut their hair

I liked to rip off their heads

I'm about to give every single one of these bitches the makeover of their life

I’m sorry I know I’ve been away for a long while but I’m doing very very bad right now and I’m spiralling over and over and my aunt just got here and she’s one of the people my mom told about me cutting and I’m so scared she’s going to want to talk about it and I just need someone

I'm here amber-

Hey, Ella, how are you?

AMBY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MIRI

MY DARLING

Hey, Ella, how are you?

Pretty good, you?