So, I ended up buying some new clothes on Friday and I was trying them on and in between clothes I saw myself in the mirror and body dysmorphia hit real hard, and so, thinking I was alone said out loud "I'm insecure about my body" like the way Ethan dis on that one Unus Annus video. Anyways, like 3 people snorted and one of them said "same"

The next day, I was putting the clothes on and I looked the exact same as yesterday with the only difference was me wearing some makeup and off brand maroon Doc Martens and I stared in the mirror for like 30 minutes until I said "I am a fucking god" and then proceeded to do nothing for the day.

Needless to say, the weekend has been a mix of emotions for me

my organs hurt

I stared at my screen for like 15 minutes and kept thinking "Why is camera film so expensive" and when I came to, realized it was 11 and that I have an essay on logical fallacies due in less than an hour. It doesn't help that today is a bad brain day and how I want to cry

What is the meaning of life, I mean all we do is rebuild, war, and destroy and do it all over again….it seems like we are just in a infinite circle that never ends

imma eat some potates
_{studying for a science test on monday that i only just started making new notes for because all my notes are at school}

I've had a weird combinations of really high highs and really low lows the past few days. A high is that I've started dreaming again, like actual good/weird dreams and not either horrible nightmares or nothing at all, so that made me really happy. But a low I had was I have been really sick, and then I had an emotional break which caused me to be even more sick and now I'm just miserable for days at a time

All I want is to purchase a raccoon. Unfortunately, I cannot.

This is the first time I've accessed this website in basically (woah) 4 years (and I hope I've moved on from being that smart-aleck I was back then), and I can't believe it's been that long. What have I missed?

I am on five days if no sleep, four different pain killers, three monsters, two rockstars, and my also on my period. (to the melody of the 12 days of christmas)

Don't die!

orm… bello dead chat, i have come to inform you of the hero that nobody wants, but its the one we have… his name is…. arachnid individual

Y'all should watch Hazbin Hotel