okay so I'm doing this complicated internship thing with a teacher who taught me last year who is AMAZING shes so feminist and liberal and I don't have enough adults like that and she's inspiring and changing juvenile justice stuff and I love her to death. And shes not able to be on my school campus a lot or shes had something else and had to cancel. And she was gonna come tomorrow and I was like WOW its national coming out day tomorrow, the stars are aligning, its a sign, etc, etc. I want to tell her partially because I want an adult to know and she's the only one I know I can trust for certain, and partially because ya know its national coming out day, might as well come out to someone and she was gonna be right there (there was some other stuff I wanted to talk to her about too which was kinda my cover for what I wanted to talk to her about but thats not important). But now she has this personal family meeting tomorrow (which I totally get, it's actually pretty important) but now I won't be able to talk to her tomorrow and idk I kinda let myself get excited about her coming and getting to talk to her and stuff and now I just . . . can't. She might come on Friday but that's not definite and it's also just not the same. So yeah :(