The Roodeness Shenanigans

I feel like Ella is typing up a comprehensive post and I'm scared

I’ve heard of fluffies long, long ago

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From my very limited knowledge, it’s like a spinoff of My Little Pony, but the ponies, known as fluffies, are small enough to fit in your hand, are extremely obese, and of course, very fluffy. The creatures themselves are actually super cute in design, I’ll give props for that, but the whole thing about the community isn’t how cute they are. It’s inflicting severe trauma and abuse upon these creatures, depicting violent scenes of them, for example, being beat to death with shovels, kicked in the stomach shortly before birth, or playing with the dead bodies of their loved ones cause they aren’t smart enough to comprehend death. The creatures are known to only eat spaghetti, talk in exaggerated unreadable UwU, and shit a lot. a lot. and the fluffy artists will not hesitate to draw that all over their cartoon fur in full detail. The artists are, for the most part, about DM levels of skill so I guess it’s not as traumatizing as it sounds, but it’s still so messed up, and apparently it’s not a kink which honestly doesn’t make it better, like if it was a kink that might explain things, but no it’s just animal torture and literal shit portrayed as “stress relief”.

……………………….

Well, Planet Earth, it's been one hell of a ride but I think I'll get off here-

Also why spaghetti? Is there a method to this madness?

I’ve known about fluffies for years (unfortunate that I even had to come across them in the first place)

I’ve known about fluffies for years (unfortunate that I even had to come across them in the first place)

How old were you?

A quick rant about the hand sanitizer at Barnes and Noble
What the fuck, guys? I trusted you, and you let me down like this? Not only does it gush out of the pump like the Niagara Falls, it has the consistency of dog slobber. And since it had the consistency of slimey slobber, I didn't want to wipe it on my pants, so I just let air dry until it no longer seemed disgusting. Next time I'm bringing my own.

To lighten the mood, I have another awful hand sanitizer story
Have y'all heard of the one that's some sort of coconut scent, and it's apparently being discounted or recalled because it smells so awful? Well, I was at a resale shop and they had it and I didn't know about the Drama and so I used it. 0/10 would not recommend, my hands smelled like very strong fermented coconuts for an hour, and I had to wash my hands like I was Lady M*cbeth to get it out.

I’ve known about fluffies for years (unfortunate that I even had to come across them in the first place)

How old were you?

I was 11 or so when I came across them, maybe a bit younger. So a long while ago

I’ve known about fluffies for years (unfortunate that I even had to come across them in the first place)

How old were you?

I was 11 or so when I came across them, maybe a bit younger. So a long while ago

Oh my God I'm so sorry for you-

I'm filled with so much energy
I wanna draw
I wanna move
I wanna do EVERYTHING
It's making me squirrelly and hard to talk to

I import the photo reference as a layer, cut out pieces of the face/hands/etc, then keep those reference pieces right next to the actual part on the drawing and just slowly work at it all zoomed in with a paint/blend brush and a bunch of blobby colors until it looks like that reference piece, before moving on to the next one, treating each cut out as it’s own smaller render until the drawing’s finished. I might make a tutorial or demonstration once I get home

I forgot to say this but yes you should do it _{also unrelated but I'm sorry for being awful to you earlier, I love you to bits}

_{I love you guys too <3 also Ella your art is amazing and if I had any cash I would commission a piece}

I'm filled with so much energy
I wanna draw
I wanna move
I wanna do EVERYTHING
It's making me squirrelly and hard to talk to

You should draw!

I'm filled with so much energy
I wanna draw
I wanna move
I wanna do EVERYTHING
It's making me squirrelly and hard to talk to

You should draw!

I am! I picked up a trashy thing I tried to do of Mariah Faith Rose a while ago (hhhh she's so pretty) and decided to employ Ella's techniques to the best of my ability. It's not going great but it's better than my previous attempts

I'm filled with so much energy
I wanna draw
I wanna move
I wanna do EVERYTHING
It's making me squirrelly and hard to talk to

You should draw!

I am! I picked up a trashy thing I tried to do of Mariah Faith Rose a while ago (hhhh she's so pretty) and decided to employ Ella's techniques to the best of my ability. It's not going great but it's better than my previous attempts

D: show it to meeeee

I'm filled with so much energy
I wanna draw
I wanna move
I wanna do EVERYTHING
It's making me squirrelly and hard to talk to

You should draw!

I am! I picked up a trashy thing I tried to do of Mariah Faith Rose a while ago (hhhh she's so pretty) and decided to employ Ella's techniques to the best of my ability. It's not going great but it's better than my previous attempts

D: show it to meeeee

You do nOt want to see it right now

I honestly want give up.
I tried to draw something but I couldn't get the hair right and now I'm looking at the piece I did earlier and wondering whether it was just luck?
I dunno, I've been really doubting everything about myself lately and I just don't know how much more I can take before I give up completely.
I ended up scrapping the piece I was working on after my friends told me that I should try again in the morning, but what if I'm still not able to get it right? I just don't know anymore..

_{felt that. It must be so much worse when you do commissions and stuff. But dude you're a great artist.}

Thank you.. I'm just in a rough patch right now where confidence seems to be non-existent. It's taking a lot more energy than I would like to actually talk to people at the moment, and that includes my IRL friends and family. I want it to go away so I can gt back to living my life peacefully again.

I'm filled with so much energy
I wanna draw
I wanna move
I wanna do EVERYTHING
It's making me squirrelly and hard to talk to

-Me at three in the morning, when I'm supposed to be asleep

My enthusiasm is waning and I'm frustrated
It looks like a person
But it doesn't really look like HER
Ughhhhhhh
And it's extremely tedious and what if I mess it up and all my work goes to waste

I'm filled with so much energy
I wanna draw
I wanna move
I wanna do EVERYTHING
It's making me squirrelly and hard to talk to

-Me at three in the morning, when I'm supposed to be asleep

Yes and also me when I'm supposed to be Relaxing, or on a long car ride

I just got back from watching fireworks lol