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i won’t share here but jake knows what he did

and hi hunny, nice to finally meet

i trust you are well?

oh… okay :/
~ nia

Hello!!!!

Tired stressed and sick. Bleh. But my holidays were really good and such. And I'm trying to work on good eating habits and body positivity with my boyfriend so that's good

Did I say something wrong?

no, of course not, i’m just tired. sorry…

Tired stressed and sick. Bleh. But my holidays were really good and such. And I'm trying to work on good eating habits and body positivity with my boyfriend so that's good

Damn those goals are way beyond me xD

My new year goals were honestly kind of pathetic but whatever it’s improvement and I haven’t failed them yet
(Well, except for two, but we won’t talk about that)

I don't make any new year's resolutions I think it's BS personally at times. I'm just trying to become stable. Finally.

-claps and cheers- YAY!

You should all work on that as well.

Me too tbh but I wanted this year to not suck so I somewhat tried
My resolutions were/are:
Keep your duolingo streak
Stop ghosting your friends
Don’t die within the year (next year’s ok tho)
Read one book. Just one. If you like it you can read two or something, but at least one
Try at least three new hobbies from your list
Post two or more things to Instagram every month
Limit yourself to one and a half servings (or less) of food per meal, except on certain holidays
Drink a minimum of one bottle of water per day (yes, this is one of the failed ones)
Draw at least every other day
Take compliments instead of making everything awkward
Brush your teeth daily
Stop being a disgrace

Naw eat more. I starved myself for over 6 months, no fun. Eat as ya please. And if someone complains? FLIPPING DEVOUR THEM! (Just kidding)

My new year's resolution was to have a more positive outlook on my life and stop being a cursed ball of rage, but no life just said fuck you and let me hate everything again so woo.

Like how in satan's name do you come back from seeing people murdered on a livestream, being constantly cursed at your whole life and verbally abused almost every day, and having grown up in such hateful environments that all you gained from elementary school was basic math, no friends, and some SERIOUS anger issues. Not only does it take YEARS of struggling and being a target in a garbage [middle] school with garbage people who tell you to kill yourself when you attempt to open up to LITERALLY ANYONE about your feelings and how you're having trouble. And of course my mom, stepdad, dad and the staff at any one of the three schools i've attended and am still at have tried to help me. How am I supposed to come back from being so… DARK?! How could I possible get the image of people getting their throats slit and decapitated and watching a woman with her hands torn off struggle to survive as she gurgles blood with a machete-cut gap in her face. I've seen all this dark shit unintentionally and can't rid myself of the thoughts. Those things don't bother me anymore because - guess what - I decided to "man up" as people always tell me too, but that's only made me a tougher person with almost no feelings, gratitude, or compassion who hates everyone. That's not what a man is supposed to be. Being tough is cool and all but what's that compared to having friends and impressing people and having hobbies and people to talk to? Especially when I don't even need to use my toughness or fighting skills or anything like that because no fights happen. I just feel useless and that there's no way to come back from falling so far into the pit of hatred. Help? Guess I'll man up. again.

_{i’m going to ask my therapist to put me in the psych ward and i’m really really scared that she is going to tell ruby’s parents that it was my idea and then i’m going to get in trouble but i really need to be there right now because i’m a danger to not just myself but the others around me and- i’m just gonna shut up now…}

Do whatever will make you end up okay and alive in the long run.

I mean I guess but that's just man up in nice

That's just a lengthy way of saying "do what's best for you."

That's true. Sorry for being so negative…