Hey.
You probably don't know me, been here for a year but whatever it happens.
I'm just gonna post this before I go to bed, so maybe I'll cry on it a bit then come see I've been ignored again when I wake up.
I wanna make an impression. I want people to like me and like what I do but I'm not likable and no one likes me but the people I force to be my friends and the people who I trick into being my friend.
I think I'm nice, I'm funny, I'm smart, but maybe I'm wrong? Maybe I'm not any of those things? I'm just tricking myself mostly and hoping for the best. And when I die at 22 from some sort of disease or cancer, I'll have no one to blame but myself. I've wasted so much time being sad.
I think I finally get what my mum was trying to say today. That I'm always sad and that I'm wasting precious time. I am. I am wasting time and the only person I have to blame is myself.
I just want friends. I want people to see me or my user and shout HOLLY!! instead of pretending I don't exist. Whatever, it happens.
But I'll show you. I'll show all of you. One day, one day I will mean something. One day I will make an impression and help others. One day I'll make you pay for disregarding me and calling me useless.
And to those who don't ignore me, from Oakley to Adriana on Twitter, I'll make you proud, I promise.