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@ElderGodSwimwithGamers October 05, 2020

I… yeah, that does make sense. Still, I know he's been frustrated with work and me having so much schoolwork, and he's trying his best to not do this things and it's hard cause of his past.
Still, thank you, it's really appreciated <3_{_{_{_{_{_{_{_{_{_{Is it bad I was kinda expecting it? Like, he's acting super upset at what he did and stuff, but it's not that big of a deal to me? Like, I know he could have done a lot worse, at least mentally wise, and I honestly prefer the physical pain to other things he has done before…}}}}}}}}}}

Also everything I've seen says don't try putting your jaw back in place yourself, but I know I con't go to anyone who's a professional. Anyone have any advice on what to do..?

@Bananapudding October 05, 2020

I… yeah, that does make sense. Still, I know he's been frustrated with work and me having so much schoolwork, and he's trying his best to not do this things and it's hard cause of his past.
Still, thank you, it's really appreciated <3_{_{_{_{_{_{_{_{_{_{Is it bad I was kinda expecting it? Like, he's acting super upset at what he did and stuff, but it's not that big of a deal to me? Like, I know he could have done a lot worse, at least mentally wise, and I honestly prefer the physical pain to other things he has done before…}}}}}}}}}}

Also everything I've seen says don't try putting your jaw back in place yourself, but I know I con't go to anyone who's a professional. Anyone have any advice on what to do..?

Some of these things may excuse his behavior, but it still doesn't make it right for him to hit you like that.

Deleted user October 05, 2020

mmmmm, abusive mom found my tik tok and now she's going through it and such. I'm panicking becuase I made a joke about finally snapping and can someone maybe figure out how to log into my tik tok account and delete it? Please?

Deleted user October 05, 2020

I can try??

Deleted user October 05, 2020

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Yeah, I'm fucked. My mom went through every video on my fucking page, she took fucking notes. So, a list of things that are offensive to her

Me saying fuck
Me not being Christian and yeah, I said kill god, as a fucking joke
Me saying that my house is toxic
Me saying that she's abusive
So much fucking more
She fucking hit me and has called me worthless, stupid, and selfish on multiple ocations. Then she has the audacity to cry to me how "I've seen kids who have it so much worse!" and "You're just going to have to stand me untill you're a legal adult!" and "I've gone to every parent class, talked to other parents, talked to your dad, read books about how to parent you!" and so much fucking more.
I'm literally reduced to being non-verbal right now becuase if I say anything I will scream and tell her to fuck off and I know that will only get me hurt.
Honestly, I would take the fucking psych ward right now. I can't be around her becuase everything she says is to gaslight and guilt trip me and I JUST WANTED A FUCKING MOM WHO WASN'T ABUSIVE

@Pickles October 05, 2020

Mm don't like that

@SpookyScarySnoteleks October 05, 2020

I'm your mom now

Deleted user October 05, 2020

Hah, if they ever saw that they would yell at me again for "OH HOW DARE YOU TRY TO REPLACE ME! DON'T GIVE OUT PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET YOUR INFORMATION"

Deleted user October 05, 2020

Hey bud, it's okay. We're here. I'm here. you can DM me any time you need to. I'm so sorry you're going through that. I just bought bubble mailers over the weekend, if you need anything in particular let me know and I'll send it to you with no questions asked. I love you.

Deleted user October 05, 2020

This sounds rude, but who are you?

Deleted user October 05, 2020

Lemme pm you real quick lol

@ElderGodSwimwithGamers October 06, 2020

I'm happy to give an update-
My jaw had been fixed! I just kinda,, ignored it and it went mostly back into place on it's own as I used it, now there's barely any pain!

Deleted user October 06, 2020

I'm happy to give an update-
My jaw had been fixed! I just kinda,, ignored it and it went mostly back into place on it's own as I used it, now there's barely any pain!

Nani???? I missed a lot… You Ok????

@furetakunai October 06, 2020

Lovely news! ( •̀ᴗ•́ )

@ElderGodSwimwithGamers October 06, 2020

It's on the previous page, basically I got bitch slapped by my dad so hard it probably dislocated

@ElderGodSwimwithGamers October 06, 2020

Lovely news! ( •̀ᴗ•́ )

Ye, now I don't have a physical reminder and can work on repressing and forgetting what happened like everything else
I'll probably forget it by the time I go to the therapist

@ElderGodSwimwithGamers October 06, 2020

Another update on the jaw-

Yeah no it's not better, pain is still there and it's definitely out of place
Will I tell my parents?
No
Will I be someone to fix it?
Probably not (how the hell would I explain it? Telling them it happened from my dad hitting me wouldn't fly at all)
Does it hurt like hell when I try to blow my nose?
Yeah
Or when I clenched my jaw (which I do surprisingly a lot, especially when concentrating)
Y e a h

@ElderGodSwimwithGamers October 06, 2020

Will I make it worse if I start trying to fix it myself?
Probably

@ElderGod-Icefire October 06, 2020

Swim, you need to tell someone. You could get permanent damage. Please talk to someone. Would your mom listen and get you some help?

@ElderGodSwimwithGamers October 06, 2020

Nope
She's honestly? Kinda worse than my dad (aka getting to his he used to be, at least this time he was apologetic)
I'll probably try to get my anatomy teacher or school nurse to help me tomorrow, but I cannot go to the doctor/hospital for this

@ElderGod-Icefire October 06, 2020

Oh, okay.
Yeah, talk to the nurse. I wish I knew how to help more, but… please at least see if the nurse can help. I know you can't go to the hospital, but there is a chance you'll have to

@ElderGodSwimwithGamers October 06, 2020

That's what I'm afraid of, and it makes me hesitant to do anything
I'm genuinely terrified of CPS showing up because of what my dad had said before

Deleted user October 06, 2020

If your dad hit you, I think it's best to tell someone.

@ElderGod-Icefire October 06, 2020

Him hitting you does qualify as abuse, I'm sorry. There is no justification for that, even if he's apologized

@furetakunai October 06, 2020

Mn.

@ElderGodSwimwithGamers October 06, 2020

Honestly
I'm too chicken to
Plus, I only have a year left, but my mom has also made it very clear she wouldn't stop me if I tried to move out earlier (which I would do in a heartbeat if I had someone to go to)

@Bananapudding October 06, 2020

Meanwhile, my mom doesn't want me to leave the house until I get married so that my husband will "keep me in control" when they're (her and my dad) not around.

@ElderGod-Icefire October 06, 2020

Swim, if you don't get your jaw fixed, it could have issues for the rest of your life. It really, really could.
And you don't have anyone to stay with? No friends that would let you crash on their couch, no grandparents or aunts or uncles? Anybody at all?

@ElderGodSwimwithGamers October 06, 2020

Family is out of the question, everyone I can contact would side with my parents or are just maybe even worse themselves?
Or live to far away, or I don't have contact with anyone because of parents

And I don't really have any irl friends, and the ones I do just don't have the room

@ElderGod-Icefire October 06, 2020

Ughhhhh. That really sucks, I wish I could help. I really do. I'm so sorry. I just…please be safe and look out for yourself

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