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@Max_Miracle_DroppedMostOfTheirRPs March 20, 2021

I’ll help, people like that are disgusting

Deleted user March 20, 2021

I don't know who they are… so no cann do

@Becfromthedead March 20, 2021

Talked to my friends about it,, gonna confront that dude at club Monday if he shows up.. Alright, so general idea of what I'm going to say to that asshole, plus some extra points because I know how he gets defensive ✌

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Hey, so I just wanted to address something from last Monday.
You made an explicitly sexual joke about me while we were playing jackbox, and that's not okay. I'm not even going to remind you of what you said because it was that uncomfortable. You're not welcome here with that kind of mentality.
I was already uncomfortable around you, I have firsthand seen the discomfort you cause others, but nothing was quite bad enough to confront you about.
This was the last straw.
We've given you second chance after second chance, but you know what? We're not your parents, and I for one am no longer up for "teaching" you right from wrong. You're a grown man, and you should know that targeted sexual jokes aren't okay, period. I don't even want to be around you any more because of the clearly disgusting light that you see me in.
Reason no one brought it up before now was because when it happened, we were absolutely shocked. Why would someone even say what you said? It was the only thing you could think of? You were running out of time? Why was that the only thing you could think of?

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I already knew you had minimal respect for women, but thank you so much for clarifying your stance. Makes it easier to weed people like you out.
Oh? You're sorry? I'm not obligated to give you forgiveness. Especially not when I've shown you so much tolerance.
We're ganging up on you? This is what consequences look like, not sure you knew that before. Everyone saw what you said and agreed it was wildly inappropriate. They're letting me defend myself and take care of it because they actually respect me.

@Becfromthedead March 20, 2021

Bonus points for no swearing because as an afab person, I can't afford to be accused of being emotional or bitchy!!!

@larcenistarsonist March 20, 2021

You go, Bec! Kick his ass right out of the club (what kind of club is it??) If that doesn't work I can always teleport over and light his socks on fire :))

@Becfromthedead March 20, 2021

It's a tea and coffee club, but we're not allowed to serve food or drinks because of the pandemic so we're kind of a hangout club for now

@larcenistarsonist March 20, 2021

Aww that's nice.

@larcenistarsonist March 20, 2021

I'm only in one club, it's our school GSA and I'm one of the presidents with a freaking awesome senior. He won state wrestli ng and hes very openly bi and just one big teddy bear jdjakahskaka

@Althalosian-is-the-father March 20, 2021

mmmmmm
just got catcalled again

Eat. Fingers.

@Althalosian-is-the-father March 20, 2021

It's a tea and coffee club, but we're not allowed to serve food or drinks because of the pandemic so we're kind of a hangout club for now

This might be perfect for the backstory to The Orange Juice Club in my books.

@wren-has-mommy-issues March 20, 2021

i'll join! but yes, i respect your approach, let us know how it goes!

@kavinfrazier21 March 22, 2021

I didn't sleep last night and I haven't eaten anything today. I wanna vent but I don't want to annoy anyone

Deleted user March 22, 2021

Go onto the Venting Chat then :)

@requiemisback March 22, 2021

me: i'm stressed out of my mind, can i have a break
my math teacher: yes but at least do some math work
me, scratching my neck aggressively: yeah sure

@kavinfrazier21 March 22, 2021

i thought this was the venting chat ;-;

@Cloudy_is_trying_her_best March 22, 2021

It is, don't worry about annoying anyone here haha.

@kavinfrazier21 March 22, 2021

so… my friend- who i thought was my friend- said she faked our whole 3 years of friendship and then told a bunch of my friends to block me before they are trapped in a friendship with me and then there ya go only few people left are my 2 bsfs and my 2 partners

@tungsten March 22, 2021

I'm pretty sure I bit the inside of my mouth while I was sleeping??? I'm almost positive I grind my teeth at night because my jaw and neck/upper back always fucking hurt which is a big sign of it

So you know I've just been knowing on the skin flap there and trying to get it off I'm having fun

@actual-fandom-trash March 22, 2021

tw for like suicide and sh and religious trauma uhh just heavy shit man

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why the fuck did they get to decide that shit for me. why the fuck did they get to choose the stupid goddamn religion over my own safety at fucking seven or eight ish like what the fuck??? i don't give a fucking shit about tradition and religion because half of the people in my life would choose this cult ish shit over a kids safety. it's not my fault that my mother held my fucking hand as they held me down and fucking cut up part of my genitals it's not my fucking fault any of that shit happened. and I fucking told my therapist about it a few weeks ago and then might have fucking gotten cps called on my family and part of me wonders if they deserve it. and it's not fucking about me because all the other little girls are gonna go through the same shit if no one else ever speaks up but I don't want to be the one who speaks up and that sounds so selfish bit it's not f a i r. it's not fucking fair. and yea the truth is that I don't fucking know what will happen and shit but I can't imagine anything good and mostly all I can see is everyone I know hating me (which is all of my close family members. every single one of them) and all I can think about it how quickly they might turn on me. and all of it has been making me feel really fucking suicidal again and it's not been a good time and yesterday I ended up at this stupid bridge and obviously I'm still here but my god it was tempting to just go and it was tempting to leave. it was so fucking tempting to do that instead of all of this shit. and my therapist is like reassuring me that all of this shit has to do with fucking processing the shit but it's just. idk I don't want to do this and I don't want to pretend to be in this messed up religion thing and I jusy wish the memory itself didn't feel so much real. I talked about it with my friend who went through the same shit cuz were both in the same boat and it just feels so much bigger because it earlier only felt like some weird hazy dream but her saying she remembers too means it was real and it wasn't just me. it wasn't just me.

@actual-fandom-trash March 22, 2021

sorry, just gonna continue the vent because i still have stuff to say

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and im just s o angry and bitter about the whole thing too. it infuriates me. i love my mom but am i supposed to forgive her for that?? am i supposed to just pretend it didn't happen or something? i don't know what the right response to this is and i don't know how i should act about it and all i can do is be angry. I've gotten pretty good at figuring out how i should react to most scenarios and stuff but what do i do here?? i don't know man. i don't fcking know. and part of me keeps making excuses for the whole thing but it doesn't stop the fact that i am bitter about it. it doesnt stop my heart from being angry about it and it doesn't stop the insanely complicated feelings that seem to come with it too.

haven't vented here in a while lol

@requiemisback March 22, 2021

cw: verbal harassment, enbyphobia, homophobia

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hahahghaha got harassed today. just for using she/they pronouns even though i''m amab. i hate myself so much right now and just… feel terrible for identifying this way. yeah, it fits me, which is great and all, but like… i swear to god, if this is gonna get me harassed then i might as well just give up. this guy in particular just rattled every bad bone in my body. he used the whole gender roles argument. tHEN he brought my sexuality into play, and used religion to excuse harassing me for liking girls more than boys given that i identify as a female. ughHHhh. today has been terrible and i just want this harassment to stop. i wish society hadn't come up with gender roles and literally just everything that causes people to do shit like this. just… blegh.

@Cloudy_is_trying_her_best March 23, 2021

Hnnnn my friend just said "what's with that dumptruck-lookin ass" and slapped my ass and I don't think they meant to make me uncomfortable, it was just a joke, but it was high-key uncomfy and even though I laughed it was just because I didn't know how to react and I'm??? Very upset by it????

@wren-has-mommy-issues March 23, 2021

that's understandable, and i'd recommend bringing it up to them. like- i understand they didn't have bad intentions, but you should make your boundaries clear, or it could keep happening/get worse.

@Katastrophic March 23, 2021

definately set boundaries. If they're your friends then they likely didn't mean it, but they won't know you don't like it until you say something. Better to show it's a problem now and clear it then let it build up without them knowing they're doing something wrong.

@someone_who_occasionally_writes_ March 23, 2021

I would mention it, just say something like, "I don't really feel comfortable with people touching me without my consent." And if they're really your friend they'd understand.
I'm sorry that happened to you luv

@wren-has-mommy-issues March 23, 2021

yes, i agree

@Becfromthedead March 23, 2021

So um, update…
The guy doesn't seem to want to leave the club, even after getting chewed out, and only one other person is in favor of a ban.
And their reasoning is "he seems like he wants to change, and also shows clear signs of neurdivergence and possibly being on the spectrum."
And like yes??? I understand all of that, but having to tell a 20-year-old man how not to act is so unfair on the rest of us. Also I don't want to be around the guy anymore, and I said if we don't ban him, I won't be attending meetings he's at. So if he doesn't get banned, I, the victim, will be further punished than the perpetrator. I will effectively be soft-banned from the club, as an officer.
We're definitely going to at a minimum suspend membership, but like, their excuses for not banning him feel like they're on some moral high ground and it sucks.
I've been around so many neurodivergent people, and none of them have ever made me feel that supremely uncomfy, so maybe it's not the neurodivergence that made him say what he did, maybe it's the fucking misogyny? Just a thought.

@tungsten March 23, 2021

it's the fucking misogyny

Its this? Being neurodivergent is absolutely not an excuse and it's super fucking annoying that they're getting in the way of you and other women feeling safe in that club. I sincerely hope it works out

@Becfromthedead March 23, 2021

Thank you, Emi.
I might have to call in the big guns (aka my SO), but if I do, things could get a lot uglier.

@wren-has-mommy-issues March 23, 2021

i mean- sometimes that's what's necessary. they can't keep making excuses for him, cuz then he'll never learn. like you said, he's a grown man, he needs to learn how to act.

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