the first one I don’t remember much about, I was making cookies to try and cheer up my family but next thing I know my mom’s screaming at me about how she can’t deal with my bullshit anymore, she hates me more than anyone else in the world and wishes she wasn’t so pro-life so she could’ve killed me before I could ever hurt her-
after crying for a solid 10 minutes my dad tried to comfort me, but the moment I started tearing up he pulled my hair and told me that I better not dare try and guilt trip him, I’ve caused my family so much pain that I should be grateful they didn’t abandon me
I woke up because apparently I’d been crying the whole time in real life and my pillow was soaked
I’ve never felt more relieved knowing it was a dream
The second one was a little more tame, as with most of my dreams we’re on a vacation at a large fancy hotel in the middle of a forest-y nowhere
It was pretty chill, my family just kinda sat around the living room playing board games and having a good time
but then I had to take a shower
the bathroom looked like a mix between a fancy ballroom and a rusty medieval torture device, but it wasn’t bad
once I was done however, I looked in the mirror and my face, my arms, every inch of me was covered in self-inflicted bruises, scars, cuts, and cracks.
I looked like a zombie…
I was absolutely terrified, I tried to cover it up with paints, pencils, and art supplies but it was no use, I was still hideous shades of green, black, and red, and I could feel stinging all over
it was terrifying