Okay, so I leave for camp tomorrow and my birthday is during this time and I'm getting a new phone, except Problem: I don't have Icloud, so I have to email every single document, note, and picture to my email and it pisses me off
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@The-Great-Wizard-Pickles-The-Great you okay? (And I'll totally have a conversation with you-)
Yeah, thanks. I'm okay now
I'm glad uwu
I have to read 30 pages of absolute boringness for school by tomorrow. I bet your thinking, ummm Ellie, that’s easy. Your WRONG. IT TAKES FOREVER. The characters have to goal to work towards and it’s just been a soldier sitting around for the past 5 chapters. I NEED HELP.
Wait you’re in school right now?
My advice is to turn on some catchy music (if you can, that is. Preferably instrumental music or music in a language you don’t speak, that way your brain won’t get distracted by the lyrics) and just read through the thing. I know it’s awful but you’ll be so glad you did once it’s over.
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It's the billionth and second time I've listened to Bring Me To Life by Evanescense, and I'm curling up on my floor having a silent panic attack because of the arguing going on in my house. I think I just heard a goddamn plate smash.
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Well… I'm not sure how to help. Just try breathing.
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I don't know what the fuck to do right now. I'm just gonna die inside I guess? I'm not okay….
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Yeah um… Please don't die.
I don't really know you. You probably live hundreds of miles from me. But I do care.
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It's the billionth and second time I've listened to Bring Me To Life by Evanescense, and I'm curling up on my floor having a silent panic attack because of the arguing going on in my house. I think I just heard a goddamn plate smash.
I don't know what the fuck to do right now. I'm just gonna die inside I guess? I'm not okay….
pm's??
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I'm reclusive, it makes sense you wouldn't. I'm just a weirdo queer writer with a thing for horror and gore because I'm a literal demon or something? That's just most of what I write because… stuff. But yeah my family argues like this a lot, it's gotten worse ever since my sister started questioning ("We've already got one fag here! Really, (my mom's name), why haven't you took her to counseling?" a literal quote from my aunt. Guess who ain't coming to the next Thanksgiving dinner?) and a recent meltdown I had where I was gonna kill myself. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I probably shouldn't go on about this, I'm just another angsty teen who can't really write, but I'm just having a hard time.
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It's the billionth and second time I've listened to Bring Me To Life by Evanescense, and I'm curling up on my floor having a silent panic attack because of the arguing going on in my house. I think I just heard a goddamn plate smash.
I don't know what the fuck to do right now. I'm just gonna die inside I guess? I'm not okay….pm's??
What about them?
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It's the billionth and second time I've listened to Bring Me To Life by Evanescense, and I'm curling up on my floor having a silent panic attack because of the arguing going on in my house. I think I just heard a goddamn plate smash.
I don't know what the fuck to do right now. I'm just gonna die inside I guess? I'm not okay….pm's??
What about them?
do you need pm's is what i'm asking…
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I'm reclusive, it makes sense you wouldn't. I'm just a weirdo queer writer with a thing for horror and gore because I'm a literal demon or something? That's just most of what I write because… stuff. But yeah my family argues like this a lot, it's gotten worse ever since my sister started questioning ("We've already got one fag here! Really, (my mom's name), why haven't you took her to counseling?" a literal quote from my aunt. Guess who ain't coming to the next Thanksgiving dinner?) and a recent meltdown I had where I was gonna kill myself. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I probably shouldn't go on about this, I'm just another angsty teen who can't really write, but I'm just having a hard time.
sparky…
oh my gods…
i'm right here for you, okay? no matter WHAT.
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I dunno. I'm also hella indecisive, did I mention? I think I might want to call a mental health helpline but I don't have a phone and I can't really ask to borrow one right now.
Update: It's not a plate, it's a gravy pitcher thingy. I don't know what those are called.
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I'm reclusive, it makes sense you wouldn't. I'm just a weirdo queer writer with a thing for horror and gore because I'm a literal demon or something? That's just most of what I write because… stuff. But yeah my family argues like this a lot, it's gotten worse ever since my sister started questioning ("We've already got one fag here! Really, (my mom's name), why haven't you took her to counseling?" a literal quote from my aunt. Guess who ain't coming to the next Thanksgiving dinner?) and a recent meltdown I had where I was gonna kill myself. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I probably shouldn't go on about this, I'm just another angsty teen who can't really write, but I'm just having a hard time.
Ok
- You sound like an absolutely amazing person
- I bet you're great at writing. Better than you think
- F your aunt
- Counciling to make you unqueer…. Ok? Not that that would ever help. Stupid being queer is fine and completely acceptable.
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I dunno. I'm also hella indecisive, did I mention? I think I might want to call a mental health helpline but I don't have a phone and I can't really ask to borrow one right now.
Update: It's not a plate, it's a gravy pitcher thingy. I don't know what those are called.
oh a gravy boat!!
does your house have a landline? use that if you can.
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No we don't. It's not really useful I guess so we never got one.
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No we don't. It's not really useful I guess so we never got one.
okay. the trevor project has an online chat for help. use that. need a link?
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I know about Trevor Project, I've talked to them a few times. I'll see if I can connect with them?
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I know about Trevor Project, I've talked to them a few times. I'll see if I can connect with them?
yup! do that!
talk to me when you get back!
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Will do, thanks.
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7cupsoftea gives free 24/7 therapy chats. I didn't have much luck but maybe you will.
I have a summer reading camp. Yay. That’s why I have to read 6 chapters by tomorrow. Extra yay.
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… can I quickly list a bunch of problems I have. And slightly vent about them
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… can I quickly list a bunch of problems I have. And slightly vent about them
go ahead!
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- I really want to talk to people verbally. But honestly the whole action makes me really tired after awhile.
- I don't love hanging out with people for extended periods of time, especially depending on the person. Don't get me wrong I love my friends… But like when one of them hung out with me till 11pm and made me feel really guilty telling them to leave. I really can't deal with it.
- I have 0 self confidence and no self esteem… At some point I've actually hated myself. But I've gotten a bit better.
- I WANT A FREAKING HUG. No joke. want a hug
- I have procrastinated A LOT.
- being in a car doesn't mean you want to talk to the other person every few seconds.
- I reserve and hold back a lot of feelings.
- sometimes I really need to cry.
- I may have depression
- I hate therapists. I honestly can't talk to people about how I feel because I have no idea.
- I don't eat breakfast when my parents aren't around and that's probably not a good thing…
- also I probably wouldn't really eat if I wasn't told to, felt hungry, or were watching someone.
- I have no idea what I'm doing.
HUGS
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