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@EllieGrace-Is-now-Gracie I was at a camp for a whole week and it is up in Pine (I live in Arizona) and it was at least a 5 hour drive and my birthday was on the last day and so we left to go back home pretty early and it gets hot here in Arizona and it ended up getting so hot that the engine started over heating and the rubber on our tires started melting and something happened in the over heated engine that there was a chance that the engine could have over heated so I ended up having to evacuate and it took three hours for a tow truck and another bus to come and pick us up. I am also one of those people who prefer headphones and won't really talk to anybody unless I've known them for a long time and I didn't have any friends and from what I've seen the girls are overly peppy and have given me many noise-related headaches over the span of that week and I basically hated it.

Hey MQ! I might have a surprise for you in our PM!

That is AWFUL

@NutEllaDraws-The-Ultimately-Superior yeah, we all were gross and pretty sure at least 17 (me included) Got heat stroke or dehydrated, but other than that we got back and just had to wait another hour (Inside) for our luggage

No! Lori, if he wants to break up with you, he is not the right guy and missing an amazing opportunity. I hope everything ends up ok.

My favorite fanfiction author updated. My life is ruined now. One of the characters lost a finger and the other lost a whole arm and had already lost three fingers before and was forced to bite off character #1's finger and then got their arm cut off by an evil boi who is normally a good boi but in this is now an evil boi and I'm dead.

Aw Sparky, that's terrible.
If you don't mind me asking, what fic?

I don't wanna link it cuz it's kinda… dark. I don't know why I'm so invested in fictional characters. BUT! I got to be part of a Pride Parade, and not just see it, actually be part of it and ride on a rainbow truck and everything! Battle Creek has a late parade in July and I got to go with my friend/maybe Queerplatonic crushhhhh??? Ehhhhh??? But it was awesome!

Um, I’m not really sure if I want to be with my boyfriend anymore, and he just spent a shit ton of money on a gift for me. I feel awful because I don’t like it and I don’t want it. It’s so expensive. I don’t even know what to do. Like, I like him still, I just don’t know if I really want to keep dating him. I like our friendship, but I think the romantic aspect just isn’t working for me. But I feel bad to break up with him. And he just spent so much money on me, I feel awful. I felt even $20 was too much to ask of him. I just, I don’t know what to do. I feel trapped now. Jesus Christ. I don’t even know how to bring it up and discuss it because I don’t want him to feel bad or anything. I just…shit.

Um, I’m not really sure if I want to be with my boyfriend anymore, and he just spent a shit ton of money on a gift for me. I feel awful because I don’t like it and I don’t want it. It’s so expensive. I don’t even know what to do. Like, I like him still, I just don’t know if I really want to keep dating him. I like our friendship, but I think the romantic aspect just isn’t working for me. But I feel bad to break up with him. And he just spent so much money on me, I feel awful. I felt even $20 was too much to ask of him. I just, I don’t know what to do. I feel trapped now. Jesus Christ. I don’t even know how to bring it up and discuss it because I don’t want him to feel bad or anything. I just…shit.

So give it time and think it over.

Um, I’m not really sure if I want to be with my boyfriend anymore, and he just spent a shit ton of money on a gift for me. I feel awful because I don’t like it and I don’t want it. It’s so expensive. I don’t even know what to do. Like, I like him still, I just don’t know if I really want to keep dating him. I like our friendship, but I think the romantic aspect just isn’t working for me. But I feel bad to break up with him. And he just spent so much money on me, I feel awful. I felt even $20 was too much to ask of him. I just, I don’t know what to do. I feel trapped now. Jesus Christ. I don’t even know how to bring it up and discuss it because I don’t want him to feel bad or anything. I just…shit.

So give it time and think it over.

I’ve been thinking about it. I just don’t know what to think, though. I’m not really sure what the problem is. I wouldn’t even know where to start a conversation on things to work on/fix in the relationship. I just don’t think this is it. But then, we’re still young, so is it that big of a deal if I don’t think this is the one for me? But then again, it kinda matters to me and I know that he’s still very into our relationship. Another thing though, I have a theory (and this might sound terrible but idk) that he only thinks he loves me so much because I’m practically the first actually good girlfriend/relationship he’s had that wasn’t awkward and short-lived. I mean, we’ve dated for 4 months now. I just think we work well as really close friends, but maybe just not romantically. I don’t feel it anymore.

Um, I’m not really sure if I want to be with my boyfriend anymore, and he just spent a shit ton of money on a gift for me. I feel awful because I don’t like it and I don’t want it. It’s so expensive. I don’t even know what to do. Like, I like him still, I just don’t know if I really want to keep dating him. I like our friendship, but I think the romantic aspect just isn’t working for me. But I feel bad to break up with him. And he just spent so much money on me, I feel awful. I felt even $20 was too much to ask of him. I just, I don’t know what to do. I feel trapped now. Jesus Christ. I don’t even know how to bring it up and discuss it because I don’t want him to feel bad or anything. I just…shit.

So give it time and think it over.

I’ve been thinking about it. I just don’t know what to think, though. I’m not really sure what the problem is. I wouldn’t even know where to start a conversation on things to work on/fix in the relationship. I just don’t think this is it. But then, we’re still young, so is it that big of a deal if I don’t think this is the one for me? But then again, it kinda matters to me and I know that he’s still very into our relationship. Another thing though, I have a theory (and this might sound terrible but idk) that he only thinks he loves me so much because I’m practically the first actually good girlfriend/relationship he’s had that wasn’t awkward and short-lived. I mean, we’ve dated for 4 months now. I just think we work well as really close friends, but maybe just not romantically. I don’t feel it anymore.

Mmmm I see. Hey who knows, maybe the spark will return. Who's to say. Either way if you need help with what to say maybe I can assist

Um, I’m not really sure if I want to be with my boyfriend anymore, and he just spent a shit ton of money on a gift for me. I feel awful because I don’t like it and I don’t want it. It’s so expensive. I don’t even know what to do. Like, I like him still, I just don’t know if I really want to keep dating him. I like our friendship, but I think the romantic aspect just isn’t working for me. But I feel bad to break up with him. And he just spent so much money on me, I feel awful. I felt even $20 was too much to ask of him. I just, I don’t know what to do. I feel trapped now. Jesus Christ. I don’t even know how to bring it up and discuss it because I don’t want him to feel bad or anything. I just…shit.

So give it time and think it over.

I’ve been thinking about it. I just don’t know what to think, though. I’m not really sure what the problem is. I wouldn’t even know where to start a conversation on things to work on/fix in the relationship. I just don’t think this is it. But then, we’re still young, so is it that big of a deal if I don’t think this is the one for me? But then again, it kinda matters to me and I know that he’s still very into our relationship. Another thing though, I have a theory (and this might sound terrible but idk) that he only thinks he loves me so much because I’m practically the first actually good girlfriend/relationship he’s had that wasn’t awkward and short-lived. I mean, we’ve dated for 4 months now. I just think we work well as really close friends, but maybe just not romantically. I don’t feel it anymore.

Mmmm I see. Hey who knows, maybe the spark will return. Who's to say. Either way if you need help with what to say maybe I can assist

Thanks <3

Give it a few days and talk to him. If he likes you that much, then he will be considerate of your feelings and want to do what’s best for your relationship. I bet you will do what’s best.

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Same

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Alright Ella what is it you need to do?

Ella same here! Life is the worst tbh tho.

what is it you need to do?

A lot. I need to exercise more, actually do school (I'm like 5 months behind on a few subjects because my parents don't monitor our school work and oh my gosh I'm terrified), work on my characters/writing stuff for once… I just don't want to be the lazy little feather who simply floats around all day not doing anything. I want to actually do stuff that isn't binge-watching different YouTube channels in a dark room with a pencil

Okay, can I ask you to do something for me, Ella?

What is it?

I want you to make a list of things you have to do this week from severely important to completely unneeded.
Then PM it to me

y'all ever have like a depression attack? kinda like of an anxiety attack but it's just so freaking,,,, can't come up with words Like, it's hard to move, I'm putting all my energy into typing this thing that no one's gonna care about or even read like what the hell am i actually doing anymore? why bother to do anything? why bother with grammar or capitalization? why bother with life, you know? it's hard to describe. anyway how is everyone?

Oh holy jesus that is EXACTLY what happens to me. It's exactly like an anxiety attack but just SAD. It just randomly pops up and then goes away in like an hour but in the meantime i legit don't want to do anything at all ever again.

yea you know what im talking about xD