Addison's laugh was cracked. "I won't cry. This was a very, very long time ago." he replied. He looked at the memory. "We…the Black Queen was going after the heart of Wonderland. So we defended it. It was the last thing she needed. And I…confronted her and Jack." memories flashed past. Talking, laughing, smiling at the dark-haired male, ending with facing Jack in a field. "She had him…kill me." the memory flashed again, shattered and damaged as Jack's form moved, as a sword embedded itself into Addison. "That was the end of that lifetime. The next three I spent locked in an aslyum." his eyes flared at Alexander for a moment, that old madness swirling in them for a moment. "Then the Red and White queens were born. They killed the Black queen, Jack, and most of the Jabberwocks. Neither the Black Queen nor Jack has ever been reborn. The next lifetime, the first Alice came. We all took her to be a symbol of our hard-won peace. And now…now the Red and White Queens are fighting, and the Alice is male."