"It is something I said it's it? Tell me what it was I want you to look at me without fear in your eyes anymore." he put the phone back in front of him.
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Eclipse looked away from him again, ears back as he covered his eyes with his paws. He had deserved it. He hurt the other.
Saayan pinned Eclipse’s paws over his head as he hovered over him. He trying to form words but wines just sounded like wines. He was shaking his head frantically while he Eclipse in the eyes.
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Eclipse shifted and pulled away from him, the physical action of pinning him down just making things worse.
“You have a voice so talk to me. I don’t want to be in the dark,” he Winnes the words on his phone showing them to Eclipse. Saayan’s tears started began once more. “I’m letting go until you talk to me! Please, I beg you tell me what’s wrong. I want to help you not be against you,” he typed.
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Eclipse pulled him into a hug, trying to get him to stop crying. But he still said nothing. He didn't want to let the other know, that for a split second, he'd been absolutely terrified of the other.
He cried loudly in his shoulder with coughs and sniffle coming out. He wined, “Tell me, Tell me, Tell me!”
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Eclipse shook his head, wanting to cry, but forcing himself not to. He knew it wasn't healthy, but he knew if he said anything they'd end up having a long painful conversation about his childhood and all the abuse he'd been through. And also the true orgins of all the scars he had on his skin, which he'd said were from fight clubs.
He continued to cry because that’s the only thing he can do. His shirt and Eclipse’s shirt were wet from Saayan crying. He had the hiccups at this point on top of coughing. “Why are you hiding secrets from each other, you said that we would never keep secrets from each other. I’ve told you everything about me so why are you keeping secrets from me?” He showed him the phone once more, trying to wipe the tears that kept flowing.
(This went downhill so quick XD)
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Eclipse froze at that, paling. "I…." he tried to think of a reason for it, a reason other than his own fear. "I-It's too painful.." he said softly, "I didn't want to face bad memories, and I still don't. I dont wanna think about any of it ever again…" he broke of in a choking sob.
He wined ‘I love you’ over and over but it wasn’t audible. Saayan hopes he knew what he was saying.
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Eclipse hugged him tightly, "Remember when I told you how I got my scars?" he asked, his voice wavering fearfully.
He nodded frantically, still trying to wipe away his tears.
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Eclipse nodded, "I… I lied.." he said quietly, "The majority…. The majority never came from fighting…. at least… not in fightclubs…" his voice was fearful, almost terrified of what the other would say.
He didn’t get mad he just sat there and listened.
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Eclipse sighed, trying to find the right words. "I… I wasn't kidding when I said my father hated me…." he said softly, "He.. "he choked back more tears. "Every time I did anything that he didn't like….. he.. he would make sure I got punished…" he hugged Saayan tighter. "It.. it didn't even have to be me… he could've just had a bad day and I'd still get blamed. And.. he.. he encouraged the pack to do it too…." he burst out in tears.
Saayan pulled a strand of hair behind Eclipse’s ear. He looked at him and smiled. He mouthed, “Thank you for telling me and guess what?”
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Eclipse was still crying, but he gave the other a look of confusion.
“I still love you and I think you’re scars are beautiful. Love means that you will always care for that person and continue to love them no matter what. Do I have to propose to you and get married the same day for you to understand that? I have the ring a hidden place if you would like to get it. I will give a whole speech on how I will never think of you differently because of your actions. I wrote it down and everything,” he chuckled showing him his phone.
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Eclipse nodded quietly, before burying his face in the other;s chest, crying softly as he stole the other's phone. "When you got mad at me earlier.. there was a moment where I thought you would attack me… it was almost exactly like what would've happened back when I was a kid….." he typed quietly.
“I would never hurt you even if I could save the human race. I would never do that to you. I’m not mad or anything. I was worried. Nothing more nothing less,” he smiled pointing to the message.
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Eclipse nodded quietly, "I-I thought you were…."
“I will never be,” he shook his head as he typed. He kissed Eclipse softly pushing all his love into it.
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Eclipse tensed when the other kissed him, but melted fairly quickly against his lips, relief flooding through him.
Saayan ran his fingers through Exlipse’s hair. The kiss became intense as neither of them wanted to pull away.
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Eclipse relaxed further, climbing properly into the other's lap.
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(Bump)
He placed his hands on Eclipse’s waist moving him up on his lap more, so he could deepen the kiss.
(Sorry about that I was out all day!)
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(No worries!!)
