Raz hooked his legs around Jay’s waist to tug him closer. He tilted his head up to deepen the kiss
Kinda want a demon and human ship so...help?
He smirked against his lips, swiping his tongue across his bottom lip, asking for permission.
Raz released a nervous breath but nodded all the same. He opened his eyes slightly to look at Jay before closing them once more
He slipped his tongue into his mouth, exploring slowly as to not scare him. He could tell Raz was nervous so he kept his motions gentle.
He was grateful for the gentleness, moaning softly on appreciation. He shivered slightly and leaned into Jay a bit more
(Half an hour until my train wreck of a 2019 is over)
He gripped him a little tighter, letting himself sink into the intoxicating feeling of growing arousal.
(Heck yeah! Happy new year and decade to you and your family!)
Raz pulled away, needing to breath and slow his rapid heartbeat “l-let’s take it slow,” he murmured against his lips, breathing hard
(Awww, thank you! Same to you and your family!)
"Okay, okay, I will." He was panting softly, trying to control himself and keep himself in check so he wouldn't have another lapse in power.
(Aw thanks!)
“I-I’m sorry for ruining the moment,” he murmured, glancing up at Jay and taking his hand
He smiled softly. "You didn't ruin anything, my prince, don't worry."
“Y-you’re sure?” He asked shyly, resting his head on Jay’s shoulder as he controlled his breathing “that was nice,”
"It was nice. And yes, I'm sure you didn't ruin anything." He was still trying to keep himself under control, forcing his power surge away so he wouldn't go through that song and dance again.
He pressed a gentle hand to Jay’s “you okay?” He asked softly, unwrapping his legs from around his waist
(Starting 2020 with not one but two pairs of gay bois! Gonna be a great year)
"Yeah, yeah, just peachy." He took a deep breath, finally getting his power under control and glancing down at him, smiling softly.
(Heck yeah!)
Raz looked up at him worriedly for a brief moment before sighing softly and nuzzling into Jay’s neck
He chuckled softly, holding him close as the other did his thing. He didn't mind, holding him would always be enough.
Raz fiddled with the hairs at Jay’s nape, tilting his head in curiosity as he gently pressed his wrist with the making flush with the one on jay’s neck “does this do anything?” He asked softly
A light zap of electricity went through him and he stepped back, suddenly scared. "Okay, don't do that. It does something but you really don't want it." He dropped his head into his hands before pulling it up to look at him. "It's basically an override switch. If two matching marks are pressed together for long enough, it'll factory reset the demon. It'll erase all traces of previous memories or personality. They'll be completely blank for their bonded to mold into a new being. It's a last resort in case the bonded feels the demon is getting too aggressive or powerful." He was starting to get frantic. "Please don't reset me, I've been working on this personality for a long time, I don't want something different."
Raz pulled his hand away and looked up at Jay “they made you a robot,” he whispered, suddenly fearing any contact with him in case he’d hurt him. “I’m not going to…reset…you.” He cringed at the word, hating how the word made Jay seem more mechanical then a living being.
"A bonded demon is supposed to be a protector, a guardian angel of sorts. A bonded demon shouldn't have to use scare tactics with their bonded. So they made a way to give the bonded like yourself a little bit of power. Just in case something goes wrong. It won't erase the contract, just the demon. They still know how to do basic things but their memories and personality are gone. I've seen it done before. It's horrifying." He shuddered.
Raz carefully reached out to Jay, wanting to comfort him and feel him close again. He tugged him close and rested his head on his shoulder once more “so they become empty shells of who they used to be.” He concluded with a shudders. “It won’t happen to you Jay, i won’t do that to you.” He nuzzled his cheek and pressed closer to him “you’re more than my bonded demon.”
He was shaking pretty hard, the sudden thought about what would happen if he did get erased was one he hadn't thought about before. He hugged him tightly, whimpering softly. "You're so much more than a bonded to me, I could never hurt you."
He stroked jay’s hair with his non-marked hand, “I know,” he whispered, squeezing him tight.
It took a couple minutes for him to calm down, his fear of being reset when he barely had his footing fading slightly as he relaxed.
“I would never do that to you Jay, know that I’d never.” He pulled away slightly and gently stroked the others cheek “has it happened to you before?”
He blinked back tears although a few slipped out. "N-Not that I know of, no. And I really don't want to, I like who I am and I don't want to forget everything." He flicked his gaze up to make eye contact. "I especially don't want to forget everything I've gone through with you."
Raz whipped away a few of Jay’s tears with the blanket and offered a small smile “you won’t Jay. No ones going to take anything from you.” He pressed a kiss to Jay’s cheek and wrapped his arms around his waist
"Promise? Promise you won't erase me? Cause I don't want to be someone new." He chewed on his lip in uncertainty.
Raz raised his eyes to meet Jay’s gaze and nodded “I swear on my life, whatever that may be worth, to not erase you Jay.”
He visibly relaxed, smiling softly. "God, I love you." He kissed him softly, glad for the reassurance.