Raz’ looked trouble, having not really considered Jay losing control again “I-I don’t know.” He whispered hugging his knees to himself and resting his head on his knees
Kinda want a demon and human ship so...help?
"I've been trying, I hope you can see that but I just don't know. We're both so new to this that I don't know what to expect."
“I know, I know you’ve been trying.” He smiled softly in reassurance “what do you expect? From what you know about relationships, what do you think is supposed to happen?”
"In a relationship? I-I don't know…from what I've seen, one gets mad at the other for so much as daring to bring the topic up and breaking the other down until they're terrified into silence."
Raz laughed softly, a harsh smile on his face “yeah, add in a few moments of physical abuse and manipulation and there’s your “perfect” couple.” He shook his head and glanced away from Jay, trying to hide his pain. “There not all like that.” He muttered
"I hope they're not cause I desperately want that to be you. I want you to be the one that's different."
Raz glanced up “I’d rather die than hurt Someone the way I’ve been hurt.” He said softly, “I hope I’m different.”
"Promise, my prince?" He looked at him, his eyes hopefully.
“No. I don’t.” He said, gazing at Jay “I don’t know who I’m going to be tomorrow, maybe I’m worse than him, maybe I’m better. I just know I don’t want to be him today. I’m not going to promise you anything that I’m not sure about.”
"Well, can you promise today? At least?" He just needed something to hold onto.
He thought for a moment before nodded “I can promise for today that I’m like him.” He pressed his head against jay’s and shut his eyes
(I'm going to assume that's supposed to say not like him?)
"That I can live with." He kissed him softly with a smile.
(Yeah it is, sorry bout that)
Raz hummed softly and leaned into the kiss “good.” He murmured, pressing their lips back together
He finally relaxed, glad that they could sort this out. He knew it'd come up again but at least it was resolved for today.
“We should probably eat breakfast.” He murmured, pulling away slightly to look at Jay
He pouted softly. "But I just wanna stay here with you."
“I’m not going anywhere, just to eat some breakfast in the kitchen, you can come too.” He smiled and started to scoot off the bed
"Noooo!" He wrapped him arms around him, pulling him back to his chest. "No. You're stuck with me now."
Raz squeaked and leaned into Jay’s “looovveee, we need to eaaaatttt.” He argued, but not leaving jay’s hold
"But I don't wanna moooooove. Moving means letting you go and I don't wanna do thattttt."
“You’re so stubborn,” Raz teased, poking Jay’s chest. He turned in the others hold so he could look at him, now On top of Jay “What if we eat and then go back to cuddling for a while?” He reasoned, pressing a whisper of a kiss to Jay’s lips
"Hmm…I don't know…" He pouted as he considered it. "Promise?" He looked up at him, fully aware that he was acting like a child.
“I’ve made way too many promises to you my love,” He murmured, slowly shifting off of Jay “why can’t you just trust me to keep my word?” He tilted his head with a smile, pressing a kiss to his head before standing
"Because a little reassurance never hurt anyone and I act like I'm 6. I don't know what to tell you." He laughed.
Raz sighed softly “yes, yes you do. Now come on, I’m hungry.” He nodded his head towards the kitchen and walked out of the bedroom
"Hey, what's that supposed to mean?" He frowned slightly, following him out. "Does my childish nature annoy you?"
“No, I think it’s really cute, I’m just impatient when it comes to food.” He replied, glancing up at him over his shoulder
"If you say so." He tried to play if off but the self-doubt was strong in his eyes. He hated feeling like a burden or that he was annoying people.
Raz started to make breakfast, glancing over his shoulder every once in a while “you okay love?”
"Hmm? Yeah, perfectly fine." He was anything but fine. He was quiet and self-conscious, overanalyzing his personality to see what needed to be changed.