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@blue_topaz

Lionel wrapped his arms tightly around Sebastian, slipping one hand into the hair at the back of his head to steady him. He said nothing, comforting Sebastian instead with his body, the way he held him, the way he brushed soft kisses across his temples.

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Sebastian all but broke as soon as Lionel really embraced him. A soft sniffle escaped him, and before long there were tears streaming down his face, clouding his vision as he pressed closer to Lionel

@blue_topaz

Lionel let him cry, rocking him gently back and forth with his mouth pressed to the soft skin above his ear. "Shhhh…" he would murmur every now and then. "I'm right here…."

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Sebastian sniffled, letting out a soft but choked sob as he clung at Lionel, grip tight as if he was afraid the other might let go. He squeezed his eyes shut, desperately trying not to be too loud

@blue_topaz

"Let it all out…" he murmured, rubbing slow, soothing circles into Sebastian's back with one hand.

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Sebastian couldn't help another choked sob, curling up tightly on himself against Lionel as he finally let himself properly break

@blue_topaz

Lionel’s arms tightened protectively around Sebastian, as if he were shielding him from the rest of the world. And in a way, maybe he was..

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Sebastian began to cry, really cry, his face buried against Lionel's chest as he trembled. It had been so long since he had really cried, just let it out like he needed to

@blue_topaz

And Lionel just held him through it all, squeezing him lightly every now and then, rubbing soothing circles into his back.

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Sebastian cried softly for a while, his body shivering with each sob as he clung to Lionel like his life depended on it. And in some ways, it did, though he would never admit that

@blue_topaz

When Sebastian had calmed down a little, Lionel pressed a soothing kiss to the top of his head. “Better now?”

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Sebastian nodded weakly, not feeling amazingly better but enough that he felt alright enough to respond

@blue_topaz

Lionel’s hold on Sebastian tightened further, as if he were daring the rest of the world to even try and hurt him. “Good.”

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Sebastian just nodded again, sniffling and rubbing at his eyes to try and compose himself again

@blue_topaz

“Take you time…” Lionel murmured, leaning back and lifting a hand to cup Sebastian’s cheek. With his thumb, he gently wiped away the last of his tears, lowering Sebastian’s hands with his free one.

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Sebastian sniffled again, doing his best to finally compose himself again. He wanted to rub at his eyes, but he couldn't since Lionel was moving his hands away from his face

@blue_topaz

Lionel let go, leaning over to grab a box of tissues from the bedside table and handing them to his boyfriend.

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Sebastian thanked him quietly, taking the tissues and blowing his nose, tossing them into a nearby garbage can before taking a moment to wipe at his eyes

@blue_topaz

Lionel waited, his arms still around Sebastian.

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Sebastian finally took a deep breath, composing himself as he rubbed at his eyes. "I'm sorry you had to see that," he mumbled, hating that he had to put Lionel through that

@blue_topaz

“Don’t be,” he answered gently. “Why would I mind?”

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"Because I'm not…It's…You shouldn't have to deal with this," Sebastian said softly, hating this more and more

@blue_topaz

“Sebastian, no.” Lionel exhaled slowly, shaking his head. “I’m your boyfriend. If I don’t want to comfort you when you’re upset, we clearly have an issue. I’m not ‘dealing with’ anything. I’m holding you because you deserve to cry sometimes.”

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"Come on, you would know rich kids don't cry," Sebastian tried to joke, but all humor was ruined by his voice audibly threatening to crack

@blue_topaz

“I know that that’s fake news,” he answered, “And that it’s okay for you to cry.”

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Sebastian just sniffled, rubbing furiously at his eyes as he did his best to keep from crying again. "You…You're so good to me," he said softly. "I don't deserve it."

@blue_topaz

Lionel handed his boyfriend another tissue, features softened by sympathy. "Of course you deserve it, why would you not? If anything, it's me who doesn't deserve you."

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"You don't deserve all the emotional baggage I come with. I'm a disaster, I'm in some serious shit," Sebastian tried to say, just clinging onto the tissue as he rubbed at his eyes

@blue_topaz

"So am I, you just haven't seen it all yet," he reasoned. "And I don't care whether or not you're a disaster. Okay?"

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"You will soon. If Valentina's shouting didn't already give it away, we're…in pretty deep," Sebastian mumbled