In Which I Talk of My Relations with A Mans

I thought you’d like it, especially with what’s going on

and you seem to like following my close relationships in a pleasant, friendly way

while making sure that it’s ok

_{if he hurts you me and Destiny will kill him}

lmao even though you’ve known him for just as long as I have

_{you god damn right}

You know I’d do the same if [Name Redacted] did the same to you

which i doubt i mean

_{lol I’m going to get friend zoned before I ever get in a relationship with [Name Redacted] it’s totally not making me cry on the inside or anything, it’s not like I like [Name Redacted] a lot or anything nervous laughter}

But you guys already went on a date???

_{um, we haven’t made it official and I’m scared to..?}

gives you that Look that I told you to remember

Talk to him about it, then. Email him or something.

too nervous to do either gUESS I’M DOING THAT TOMORROW PLEASE HELP ME

[Talking about preferred body types]

“I bet your body type is the real chad, like this guy:

hard muscle, with a six pack, and rock hard nipples.”

“Yeah, because I just love dehydration and ice cubes.”

“What do you mean, like, do you just imagine me dehydrating myself and rubbing ice cubes all over myself?”

“That is not an image I wanted in my head.”

He also doesn’t know what to do when I’m feeling depressed, and he’s trying to figure it out and honestly it’s the sweetest thing

Also he’s logging every time I “moan” lmfao

By definition, not by the weird pleasured one which is how I think of moans

nope

long drawn out sounds of anguish

I just called him a Bard

He’s offended by it lmao

He called me a tank based on how much self-defense training I do, and in return I insulted him

He just called me Hitler bc I used a stereotype

i did and he said he’d make me kill myself lmfao

Anyway today we went on a date to a park in the town we live in. It’s relatively big and has a big lake.

I took a lot of pictures:

yet somehow he didn’t like these pictures that i took but like how can you not admire them?

I talked about how someone as detail oriented as myself is told that you should keep them, then immediately mistook the shadow of the sun on a tree as the American flag, and a banana rather than a yellow snake

i had fun tho :D

_{we also kissed a lot, don’t tell anyone}

Now that this pic’s on my clipboard

Emi v Nate on “Pictures”

Emi:

Nate:

both of us are unrecognizable in them lmfao

He just called me special before we hung up tonight

my sunshine man

he’s a sunshine

Emi you have your healthy relationship! You go best girl!
_{While I sit over here having awkward conversations with [Name Redacted] which is good enough for me.}

Nate: Probably doing something productive and ignoring my stupid ass

Me, the stupid idiot:

Now at this point you might be thinking:

“What the hell is she doing?”

And in which my answer would be, “Great question. Serenading my guinea pig. Badly.”

lmao I’m glad you answered sooner than he did just to prove my point

[A conversation, featuring Emi, talking to Emi]

So you haven’t heard from him all day.

Call him?

No-

You remember that thing you watched a couple days ago that was like, just live your life, do whatever the hell you want to do?

Yeah-

Well what the hell he gonna do if you call him? Kill you?

I don’t wanna disturb him-

But you haven’t heard from him at all

He might be busy!

Yeah, all day, sure.

I’ll call him at 8. No shit, wait, it’s 7:56, I’ll call him at 8:30.

annoyed mind sigh

I’m conflicted and angry at myself

Oh yeah, fucking Nate wouldn’t do a damn thing but hesitate at all if he were in my situation

If anything if I were busy he’d just keep calling

like a couple of days ago when I was on the phone with one of my friends, he just ke p t calling

there was this one time I was downstairs and I came back up to nine missed phone calls

so i don’t think i’m as bad but i’ll still feel bad because i have sympathy damnit

I don’t need an angel on my shoulder telling me to call the devil on my shoulder lmao

but i’ll do that

i like that

[Playing two lies and a truth]

Nate: “1) I am dating someone who is strong, independent, and beautiful. 2) I am dating someone who is a 9/10. 3) I am dating someone who is talented.”

Myself: “Well, all of them.” (We laugh for a couple of minutes). “Would it be number two?”

Nate: “Yeah, actually, because you’re a 10/10.”

holy s h i t he’s good, better than I thought

lmfao i forgot to respond to this

I’m very proud of him