The tired, gay, sad, and confused chat

I'm okay. Only got a few hours of sleep last night. The rest of the time I was just lying awake in my bed with "Tossing and Turning" stuck in my head on repeat

Didn't get much sleep last night either… So I know how you feel…

Sorry… You could've had a conversation with me to pass tge time… I can help you that way too…

I was hoping that if I stayed still and closed my eyes for long enough that I'd be lulled back to sleep… conversations and talking keeps me awake so that would've done the opposite of help, plus I would feel pressured to stay awake longer to finish the conversation.

It's fine. I've dealt with insanely extreme insomia before so this isn't much to me in comparison…

Yeah… I've dealt with it too… But you're not pressured to finish anything by me…

Hi I'm extra tired, sad and gay

How so?

I barely slept last night and my mental health is at another low so that's fun.

You wanna talk about it?

Feeling gay and lonely

We'll be here to keep you company!

YAY!

Mhm!

Hi I'm extra tired, sad and gay

How so?

I barely slept last night and my mental health is at another low so that's fun.

You wanna talk about it?

maybe but im stuck at school rn

Hi

I'm okay. Only got a few hours of sleep last night. The rest of the time I was just lying awake in my bed with "Tossing and Turning" stuck in my head on repeat

Didn't get much sleep last night either… So I know how you feel…

Sorry… You could've had a conversation with me to pass tge time… I can help you that way too…

I was hoping that if I stayed still and closed my eyes for long enough that I'd be lulled back to sleep… conversations and talking keeps me awake so that would've done the opposite of help, plus I would feel pressured to stay awake longer to finish the conversation.

It's fine. I've dealt with insanely extreme insomia before so this isn't much to me in comparison…

Yeah… I've dealt with it too… But you're not pressured to finish anything by me…

I would pressure myself, you see.

Well that's too bad, because I find you blameless, Red!

Well that's too bad, because I find you blameless, Red!

That's a very bad thing to find me as please don't… without some amount or form of blame, I would become too greedy and prideful and generally just not a good person. Some blame is good. Keeps me in check.

I mean in this instance, not forever…

I'm so tired right now uggh

I mean in this instance, not forever…

eh. still, though…

I mean in this instance, not forever…

eh. still, though…

Not 'still'… You're blameless, for now!

I mean in this instance, not forever…

eh. still, though…

Not 'still'… You're blameless, for now!

disgruntled noises of disagreement
fine…

Good girl/boy/person!

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

You live for the good people in your life! That's how… I've been with and without mental illness and I function the same externally either way…

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

I imagine it all of the time. I'm constantly wishing I had a life where I didn't have to deal with those thoughts that like to sneak up on me at the most inconvenient times.

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

I imagine it all of the time. I'm constantly wishing I had a life where I didn't have to deal with those thoughts that like to sneak up on me at the most inconvenient times.

Yeah
I'm getting meds soon, so that should help…
or make me want to comit…

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

I imagine it all of the time. I'm constantly wishing I had a life where I didn't have to deal with those thoughts that like to sneak up on me at the most inconvenient times.

yeah like..some people just go through life and deal with shit. when I was little I would hear about kids committing suicide and I thought i'm glad i'll never be like those kids but…here we are..

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

I imagine it all of the time. I'm constantly wishing I had a life where I didn't have to deal with those thoughts that like to sneak up on me at the most inconvenient times.

Yeah
I'm getting meds soon, so that should help…
or make me want to comit…

I can't get any bc my parents (who are not psychologists/psychiatrists) believe there's nothing wrong with me and that I'm just an angsty teenager influenced by the internet
well surprise surprise I've been having these thoughts since I was around 10 or 11 and wasn't even allowed on the internet

Yeah, that's true…

Is it weird that I can't imagine life without mental illness
like, I don't understand how you go through life without wanting to…die?

Yeah…

I imagine it all of the time. I'm constantly wishing I had a life where I didn't have to deal with those thoughts that like to sneak up on me at the most inconvenient times.

Yeah
I'm getting meds soon, so that should help…
or make me want to comit…

I can't get any bc my parents (who are not psychologists/psychiatrists) believe there's nothing wrong with me and that I'm just an angsty teenager influenced by the internet
well surprise surprise I've been having these thoughts since I was around 10 or 11 and wasn't even allowed on the internet

It honestly baffles me that there are people in the world who don't live most of their days wanting to die, or just feeling empty or their guts not scrunching up when they're in public.and all
Just how are people able to dot hat

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri… I love you but what works for you won't work for everyone. I wish the sadness could be blocked out just because I'm living for the people I love. But all those feelings don't go away. It just forces me to stay here when the one thing I want most is to be gone.

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri, I'm sorry to say this… But, your pretty much saying exactly what my parents say "Only you can make you happy." And that doesn't work. Sorry if I soudn rude but…

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri, I'm sorry to say this… But, your pretty much saying exactly what my parents say "Only you can make you happy." And that doesn't work. Sorry if I soudn rude but…

Your parents are right in a way… the first step in true happiness is loving yourself and making yourself happy on your own, but sometimes that's the most difficult part.

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri… I love you but what works for you won't work for everyone. I wish the sadness could be blocked out just because I'm living for the people I love. But all those feelings don't go away. It just forces me to stay here when the one thing I want most is to be gone.

I'm aware what works for me isn't for everyone… That's why I said it would help, not magically solve all your problems… I'm sure you know this, but leaving this world will cause the ones around you more and more pain each day… So please, let us try to help, and try to help others as well…

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri, I'm sorry to say this… But, your pretty much saying exactly what my parents say "Only you can make you happy." And that doesn't work. Sorry if I soudn rude but…

You're fine you don't sound rude at all… What I said, was "living for others can help make you happy…" Although your parents are partially right… Not saying they're completely right at all

Maybe you guys aren't listening to me…

All you have to do is live for the good people in your lives… Live for your friends, your family (at least the good members) or your significant others… You can block out the sadness, anger, fear, depression, anxiety and lack of motivation by helping them deal with their problems… It's what I do… And it works…

Shuri… I love you but what works for you won't work for everyone. I wish the sadness could be blocked out just because I'm living for the people I love. But all those feelings don't go away. It just forces me to stay here when the one thing I want most is to be gone.

I'm aware what works for me isn't for everyone… That's why I said it would help, not magically solve all your problems… I'm sure you know this, but leaving this world will cause the ones around you more and more pain each day… So please, let us try to help, and try to help others as well…

I know it will cause people pain. That's the only reason I'm here. But that doesn't ease the pain at all, it makes it a lot worse.