Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Ok, so I think I have a problem with obsessing over stuff. For example, if I find something that I really like, whether it be a TV show, book, an idea, or basically anything, I'll begin to obsess over it. I'll spend hours scrolling through things on pinterest related to it and stay up late into the night doing stuff like that. It'll be the only thing that fills my head and all my other interests dull in comparison to it. I could spend hours just thinking about it. But then I begin to loose interest in that too and it slowly becomes more and more dull. And then I slowly being to slip into a void of boredom until I can find another obsession to fill the space. In conclusion, my life is cycle of passionate obsessions followed with voids of boredom and
h e l p
because I think there's something wrong with me.

oh mood

You might possibly have ADHD. That sounds very much like a hyperfixation there.

Ok, so I think I have a problem with obsessing over stuff. For example, if I find something that I really like, whether it be a TV show, book, an idea, or basically anything, I'll begin to obsess over it. I'll spend hours scrolling through things on pinterest related to it and stay up late into the night doing stuff like that. It'll be the only thing that fills my head and all my other interests dull in comparison to it. I could spend hours just thinking about it. But then I begin to loose interest in that too and it slowly becomes more and more dull. And then I slowly being to slip into a void of boredom until I can find another obsession to fill the space. In conclusion, my life is cycle of passionate obsessions followed with voids of boredom and
h e l p
because I think there's something wrong with me.

oh mood

You might possibly have ADHD. That sounds very much like a hyperfixation there.

Oh

Today I felt like an immortal,
but in the worst way possible
like the feeling of not wanting to be close to anyone because they're going to die in a few decades and you will live on
not being understood by anyone because to you time is arbitrary, the world is going to keep turning so what's the point.
So today I am reminded that an immortal like myself is going to be alone for ever.

You know those stories where the immortal learns to be close to people again, I hate them. Love is not going to break the curse that is Immortality. one dashingly handsome individual isn't going to break through the shell of an immortal who has spent centuries dealing with loss. Those stories are never showing the true mental damage and toll that has on a person. Any way that is all.

Dissociation maybe?

Can I just cry and throw up?? QUICK RANT.
So the girl I like is currently test dating my ex. and they started acting all cute to each other… and it makes me wanna hurl and cry. I just I know it's stupid teenage drama. But Agh . I just hope the best for them. Even though I'm high key their 3rd wheel…

books that romanticize mental illness seriously need to stop
like, man
really

Can I just cry and throw up?? QUICK RANT.
So the girl I like is currently test dating my ex. and they started acting all cute to each other… and it makes me wanna hurl and cry. I just I know it's stupid teenage drama. But Agh . I just hope the best for them. Even though I'm high key their 3rd wheel…

I understand you, I feel your pain.
My best friend started dating my ex like less then a month after we broke up.
If you ever need to vent about it I'm here for you.

Can I just cry and throw up?? QUICK RANT.
So the girl I like is currently test dating my ex. and they started acting all cute to each other… and it makes me wanna hurl and cry. I just I know it's stupid teenage drama. But Agh . I just hope the best for them. Even though I'm high key their 3rd wheel…

I understand you, I feel your pain.
My best friend started dating my ex like less then a month after we broke up.
If you ever need to vent about it I'm here for you.

Thanks friend. And NOW she wants me to come with them on a mall date. We're all good friends…but it's weird…plus…I did cry. Then she asked what was wrong, and I said nothing was wrong. I just went about my day just…trying to not let it bother me.

Why do I even art?? Honestly I'm bad and I don't really enjoy it that much? I wanna be good but also drawing anything more than a bald head is way too hard and I'm sad because I had a good idea but I can't make it work because I suckkk

ah i feel you
honestly hair is the worst part of drawing like???? do you want it to look like this or????

forgot my fucking password after one damn day so this is me, lemonboy number 2

Why do I even art?? Honestly I'm bad and I don't really enjoy it that much? I wanna be good but also drawing anything more than a bald head is way too hard and I'm sad because I had a good idea but I can't make it work because I suckkk

Honestly, just try to draw something even if you’re terrible at it. Find the shapes of things. I’m bad at art but it’s a good way you get my feelings out so I don’t let my lack of skill stop me.

just gonna complain about being awake cause I had a really great dream last night and now existence is disappointing