Because words are hard… massive virtual hug
I really hope you don't think I don't care or something, the reason I haven't said anything is because I genuinely don't know what to say. I'm not ignoring you, I promise, I'm just not as good with words as a writer should be ;-;
Izzy babe, you're going to be okay, alright? We're gonna get through this, angel. We just gotta hold on.
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isokie cloudy, i understand-
and thank you dom, leo-
ill try to hold on i guess
but i cant help but feel like i somehow deserve this pain
my brain has come up with a million reasons idek and theyre apparently believeable enough for me but at the same time its so painful i just want it all to go away ;-;
Hey. You don't, okay? You don't deserve this shit, you've done nothing wrong. Your brain is being mean, it's grieving.
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Also, Izzy, make sure you're taking care of yourself in the meantime. Eating, drinking water, doing whatever self-care works for you, using distractions when you need, etc.
Even if it's just little things, it'll be easier to bounce back as opposed to spiral if you're taking care of yourself.
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okay,,,,,,,
i guess ill just go cry some more
and maybe get a glass of water later
maybe if im hungry again ill make some comfort food too
thats all if i can remember to do it
hahahhhaha i can do hw as distractions, i think
im not sure if itll work though
Hey. You don't, okay? You don't deserve this shit, you've done nothing wrong. Your brain is being mean, it's grieving.
^^^^^^^^
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It's quarter past three in the morning and I'm still awake. I have school tomorrow, too! First I couldn't sleep because apparently it was Morbid Hours so I decided to play Pokemon and that helped with that, but now my mouth hurts like hell!! I just. Want. To sleep.
Izzy, I don't know if this will help or not, but if you think about it she, in a way, still lives…. She lives in the hearts and memories of those that knew and loved her. She lives in your heart and memories. As long as this is true she'll never truly be gone. When you smell something she liked, she's there. When you see something she liked, she's there. Take care of yourself Iz. <3
So while changing I couldn’t bear to look at my skin and I’m here to complain bc having a skin condition that I can basically never be free of is majorly depressing at times.
oh gosh I feel you
My eczema has left my shoulders so cracked and dry that I can’t wear certain clothes or take a shower without them aching
my legs are permanently scarred due to all the rashes and scabs that keep appearing on them. I look like a freaking Dalmatian from the knees down and I likely will forever
my lips need constant chapstick and often thick layers of makeup to heal the patch of red right next to them
and now it’s starting to spread to my collarbone and a bit around my eyes so I am Not Happy. those are like the proudest parts of my body don’t ruin them goshdanggit
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So found out this morning that my grandpa is in the ER with covid. He has bad heart problems and my grandma is at health risk and recovering from a difficult surgery. My mom was staying at their house to take care of her and now will be staying there until she is out of quarentine. I don't know how bad any of it is yet and all I can do is wait. On one hand, I refuse to mourn the living. I don't want to be upset yet cuase they're still alive right now no matter the odds. On the other hand, I keep thinking how my grandma was sad we can't all be together anymore and how she promised me she would teach me how to make her christmas cookies this year. I just want to go home and have everyone be okay.
my fellow eczema folks, I can't recommend Vanicream Moisturizing Cream enough
Vaseline for the lips, cerave daily moisturizing lotion for the face.
Vanicream everywhere else.
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Izzy, I don't know if this will help or not, but if you think about it she, in a way, still lives…. She lives in the hearts and memories of those that knew and loved her. She lives in your heart and memories. As long as this is true she'll never truly be gone. When you smell something she liked, she's there. When you see something she liked, she's there. Take care of yourself Iz. <3
yeah,,,, thank you <3
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It would be really cool to not be exhausted for like. One day.
So while changing I couldn’t bear to look at my skin and I’m here to complain bc having a skin condition that I can basically never be free of is majorly depressing at times.
oh gosh I feel you
My eczema has left my shoulders so cracked and dry that I can’t wear certain clothes or take a shower without them aching
my legs are permanently scarred due to all the rashes and scabs that keep appearing on them. I look like a freaking Dalmatian from the knees down and I likely will forever
my lips need constant chapstick and often thick layers of makeup to heal the patch of red right next to them
and now it’s starting to spread to my collarbone and a bit around my eyes so I am Not Happy. those are like the proudest parts of my body don’t ruin them goshdanggit
For me it’s worst on shoulders and chest. It’s Not Nice. Validating to have others mention it though. Good luck to you.
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Yeah, I get that. My eczema would get really bad on my hands to the point that I couldn't even really hold stuff and it was kinda sad. And I've managed to stop it from flaring up mostly, though on places like my feet and hands I have a harder time stopping it. Ah, and my neck too.
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hehe i just realised that my fren kyoko looks just like six
she looks just like her
for once i wished asians came in the same kind of variety that americans do
maybe then
when i look at her user
i wont remember how six looks
looked, i guess
i dont really know anymore
then maybe
when i see kyoko in chat
i wont wanna curl up in a ball and commit exist'nt again
ive been feeling that a lot lately huh
bleh
memories from when my friend tried to help me feel better last night dont really help
also
also if only he lived closer ;-;
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fuck my head hurts so much i really should have drank more water last time-
im doing kinda bad in school and my parents have threatened to take away my art supplies/not let me draw or anything and they wanna take away my phone which are literally my only source of happiness
HAPPY VENT
My friend that I was co-writing Demon's Hunt has decided that she wants to continue working on that with me! It's been a long time since we last worked on it, and I remember that I was super bummed when she backed out. Also, Wale gets to finally set sail yet again!!!!!
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im doing kinda bad in school and my parents have threatened to take away my art supplies/not let me draw or anything and they wanna take away my phone which are literally my only source of happiness
Oh, I relate to this most definitely. Keep hanging in there, Salami. You can do it and things do get better. I know focusing is hard sometimes, but it really comes down to getting a stronger sense of self-discipline. As well as becoming aware of the fact that you're getting distracted. It may be a hard thing to stop at first, these distractions. But over sometime of giving in but still recognizing it, you'll slowly gain more control.
How I like to get started off is setting myself a timer. 15 minutes of work, 5 minutes to do something else. And keep on bumping the times while keeping a 3:1 ratio. It's not going to be an easy task, especially when under stress when all one wants to do is run, but you've got this. Turn on some music while you work, vibe, chill out. And once this is all said and done, you can look back at how far you've come and be fucking proud. Because you deserve to be.
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HAPPY VENT
My friend that I was co-writing Demon's Hunt has decided that she wants to continue working on that with me! It's been a long time since we last worked on it, and I remember that I was super bummed when she backed out. Also, Wale gets to finally set sail yet again!!!!!
Ayy, that's great! Glad to hear it.
ac_unit
i had a science exam today (year 9)
Not sure if this is a good or bad thing, but I hope you did well!
ac_unit
:D nice~! Good job!
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okay thank you <3
