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@evastardust RRAAAARRL August 11, 2020

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Y'all know how rare it is for me to cry over books, and I was tearing up because I want that. I want that so badly. I couldn't care less if I have some love story with roses and chocolate or whatever, I just want to have that.

@RedTheLoveless August 11, 2020

It's the new Alice Oseman book, and it ends with

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I'd love to read that, though I also think it may be a bit of an uncanny valley compared to my friendship with my best friend. We dated on and off throughout middle and high school because we couldn't figure out if we liked each other or if we like-liked each other. It finally clicked Senior year, and we've been self-proclaimed "platonic soulmates" ever since. We are each other's number one. I'm so lucky to have her.

@evastardust RRAAAARRL August 11, 2020

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It's the new Alice Oseman book, and it ends with

Spoiler - click to show.

I'd love to read that, though I also think it may be a bit of an uncanny valley compared to my friendship with my best friend. We dated on and off throughout middle and high school because we couldn't figure out if we liked each other or if we like-liked each other. It finally clicked Senior year, and we've been self-proclaimed "platonic soulmates" ever since. We are each other's number one. I'm so lucky to have her.

That's so wholesome ;-;

@Althalosian-is-the-father August 11, 2020

High-key interested in the book ngl.

@Althalosian-is-the-father August 11, 2020

spoilered for potential tw

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I’d try sunlight and hydration, as much contact with people you love as possible, and attempt to make your hours of nothing count; read or draw or find something that gives a spark of meaning.

@The-N-U-T-Cracker August 11, 2020

High-key interested in the book ngl.

Big same.

@evastardust RRAAAARRL August 11, 2020

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High-key interested in the book ngl.

Big same.

It's very good! My fave is still Solitaire but this one is probably my second favorite

@Pickles August 11, 2020

Amazon doesn't have it yet and I'm so madddd

@evastardust RRAAAARRL August 11, 2020

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Try Book Depository, that's where I got mine! It's got free international shipping
https://www.bookdepository.com/

@Pickles August 11, 2020

Try Book Depository, that's where I got mine! It's got free international shipping
https://www.bookdepository.com/

You see.. I don't have any money that's not gift cards

@evastardust RRAAAARRL August 11, 2020

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@Pickles August 11, 2020

I might have enough on a visa gift card though so we'll see~

@moss August 11, 2020

I signed up for cross country but i have no experience running umm i think im gonna die why did i do this

cross country isn't too bad
just breathe correctly when you run and you'll be alright

I would like to add by saying, Breath right and don't live in a dessert. then you'll be alright.

How do i breath right???

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I signed up for cross country but i have no experience running umm i think im gonna die why did i do this

cross country isn't too bad
just breathe correctly when you run and you'll be alright

I would like to add by saying, Breath right and don't live in a dessert. then you'll be alright.

How do i breath right???

avoid panting, just try to breathe steadily and evenly.

@RedTheLoveless August 11, 2020

I signed up for cross country but i have no experience running umm i think im gonna die why did i do this

cross country isn't too bad
just breathe correctly when you run and you'll be alright

I would like to add by saying, Breath right and don't live in a dessert. then you'll be alright.

How do i breath right???

In through the nose, out through the mouth.
Time your breaths with your footfalls.
Slow down if you start to hyperventilate or if you start to get tunnel-vision.

Also for the running part of cross country, you're going to have to develop a run with a spring (aka, bounce with every step). Why? Because the trails are usually on uneven terrain and if you misstep you can quickly recover. If you run flat-footed, like in track, you run the risk of tripping and wiping out on the trail.

Pro tips: When you're running downhill, spread your arms out for balance, and if it's across unstable rocks, run sideways (more likely to slide instead of trip that way). When going uphill, powerwalk. It may slow you down, but it's better than wearing yourself out trying to run up steep and/or long stretches of uphill trail.

(This is advice based off my experience in cross country. I did the sport 5 years ago, so be prepared for your experience to be different than mine)

@Mojack August 11, 2020

I’ve decided that I’m going to be doing online courses for school this semester (unsure about next one)
There’s still back to school plans for my province, but I heard some stuff and I’m not gonna take that sort of risk..plus as someone who has a four month niece who visits occasionally and older family members that also visit I’m just…taking that into account.

Plus I heard online courses are going to be like…

Semester one, two classes for September-November then two classes for the rest of the semester
And semester two I think is the same way

Decision just makes me feel overall more comfortable. I don’t think this pandemic is going to go away anytime soon (I think numbers may rise again during September) so doing online seems like a better choice overall, for me at least.

@evastardust RRAAAARRL August 11, 2020

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Mine's doing mandatory online school for the first quarter, and I think it's also limiting classes to four a quarter or something as opposed to eight? Idk I was a bit confused by that bit.

@Pickles August 11, 2020

:[ the "wait do I like this person" feeling is back and I don't like it

@berlioz August 11, 2020

Tw suicidal stuff

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I'm suicidal again. So much so that my arms are burning. I don't know to explain it. It's pure emotion, it makes my body ache. My throat is tight. My chest is heavy. Every time I try to tell my friend it's never a good time. I hate myself. I'm so dependant on others. I don't know if I'm wrong for wanting to tell someone. It feels wrong, since it'll just hurt them, make me self centered. I'm paranoid. So so paranoid I'll mess up whatever little things I'm still living for, or that I ready have. Everything is twisted in my head. This is pathetic. I'm pathetic. I'm literally so fucking disappointed that I'd be so invested in this waste of a life. My body can't take it. My mind is done. I had a panic attack last night but I never "finished" so I think it's being dragged out or "postponed". I hate this. I'm so full of hate. But at the same time I can laugh and joke along with almost anything. I hate the duality. My hands feel like they're gunna burst, but cutting doesn't work for me. I'm not even crying, tears are just streaming. Everytime I think I've figured things out, it all tumbles down worse. I hate myself.

@moss August 11, 2020

I signed up for cross country but i have no experience running umm i think im gonna die why did i do this

cross country isn't too bad
just breathe correctly when you run and you'll be alright

I would like to add by saying, Breath right and don't live in a dessert. then you'll be alright.

How do i breath right???

In through the nose, out through the mouth.
Time your breaths with your footfalls.
Slow down if you start to hyperventilate or if you start to get tunnel-vision.

Also for the running part of cross country, you're going to have to develop a run with a spring (aka, bounce with every step). Why? Because the trails are usually on uneven terrain and if you misstep you can quickly recover. If you run flat-footed, like in track, you run the risk of tripping and wiping out on the trail.

Pro tips: When you're running downhill, spread your arms out for balance, and if it's across unstable rocks, run sideways (more likely to slide instead of trip that way). When going uphill, powerwalk. It may slow you down, but it's better than wearing yourself out trying to run up steep and/or long stretches of uphill trail.

(This is advice based off my experience in cross country. I did the sport 5 years ago, so be prepared for your experience to be different than mine)

Tyson!! That’s so helpful. I’m currently in the car going to practice ahhh I’m so nervous.

@RedTheLoveless August 11, 2020

Tyson!! That’s so helpful. I’m currently in the car going to practice ahhh I’m so nervous.

Not my name, but you're welcome. Good luck. I think you're going to have a fun time.

Deleted user August 11, 2020

ty s o n

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they meant 'tysm' ace you fool

@berlioz August 11, 2020

ty s o n

Chicken nuggets

@Althalosian-is-the-father August 11, 2020

:[ the "wait do I like this person" feeling is back and I don't like it

Whoa.

@Althalosian-is-the-father August 11, 2020

Tw suicidal stuff

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I'm suicidal again. So much so that my arms are burning. I don't know to explain it. It's pure emotion, it makes my body ache. My throat is tight. My chest is heavy. Every time I try to tell my friend it's never a good time. I hate myself. I'm so dependant on others. I don't know if I'm wrong for wanting to tell someone. It feels wrong, since it'll just hurt them, make me self centered. I'm paranoid. So so paranoid I'll mess up whatever little things I'm still living for, or that I ready have. Everything is twisted in my head. This is pathetic. I'm pathetic. I'm literally so fucking disappointed that I'd be so invested in this waste of a life. My body can't take it. My mind is done. I had a panic attack last night but I never "finished" so I think it's being dragged out or "postponed". I hate this. I'm so full of hate. But at the same time I can laugh and joke along with almost anything. I hate the duality. My hands feel like they're gunna burst, but cutting doesn't work for me. I'm not even crying, tears are just streaming. Everytime I think I've figured things out, it all tumbles down worse. I hate myself.

Can’t say more than the usual stuff. This too shall pass. Ride it out.

@Pickles August 11, 2020

:[ the "wait do I like this person" feeling is back and I don't like it

Whoa.

Whoa what?

@evastardust RRAAAARRL August 11, 2020

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2020 books really said "we're gonna give The Gays beautiful covers" and delivered on it, huh

@Pickles August 11, 2020

2020 books really said "we're gonna give The Gays beautiful covers" and delivered on it, huh

Man I can't wait to move out so I can buy all the pretty, gay books

@evastardust RRAAAARRL August 11, 2020

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2020 books really said "we're gonna give The Gays beautiful covers" and delivered on it, huh

Man I can't wait to move out so I can buy all the pretty, gay books

God, same
The Afterlove cover will be the death of me

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