so… remember how I was planning to come out to my best friend?
I recently found out that the reason she left our big group server wasn’t to avoid notifications, she just couldn’t stand two of the users there cause they were lesbians and wouldn’t stop talking about it, which made her so uncomfortable she had to leave.
She brought it up to me and was all like “I’m so glad someone understands, I’m always worried if I say it out loud people will think I’m a terrible person” which I get, sometimes it’s difficult when a large portion of the population including people you want to care about make you severely uncomfortable. however, even though I understand where she’s coming from and agree for the most part, it’s been haunting me, what if I tell her about this, maybe try to go to her for advice, and she decides she doesn’t want to talk to me anymore?
so now I’m not so sure, I think I’m not going to come out at all, not even about being ace, I don’t want her to think I’m like them.
but even if I don’t tell her what if she finds out? I’m not gonna date any girls, I would never allow myself to do that, but there are still other ways she could figure it out if I don’t make this stop, and I don’t want her to dislike me-
why can’t I just be normal? how do i make these emotions go away? guys are cute too, it won’t be the end of the world if I have to bury some feelings here and there, I just don’t want to risk losing my closest friend all cause i’m messed up…
someone please tell me what to do i’ve been overthinking this all week