Private roleplay with @Otaku_Is_Anime_Trash

Lucas tapped his foot anxiously on the floor of the car. He looked a bit like he wanted to say something, but he kept his mouth firmly shut.

He looked over and saw Lucas uneasy, "You okay man? Look like there is something on your mind."

"It's nothing… it's just… Claus." He said quietly, fidgeting with his hands.

"Yeah what about him is he okay? Speaking of which I haven't seen him around lately," Once they got into the house he set the bags of junk food on the counter.

Lucas shook his head, avoiding eye contact. "He's… n-no. He's not okay."

He leaned on the counter, "What do you mean what happened to him?" he raised an eyebrow worried.

Lucas was quiet for a few seconds. "He… um… h-he killed himself a little while ago…"

His eyes widened as he ran over and hugged Lucas, "I am so sorry. I didn't even realize he wanted to do that! Are you feeling okay with all of this?"

Lucas shrugged. "He and I just dealt with our grief differently… you do know about my mother, after all. She died a few years ago, though." Don't cry I swear to god.

"I'm sorry it's okay if you want to cry you know." he chuckled holding him tighter, "Why didn't you tell me about this?"

"B-Because I didn't want you guys to worry about me…" He held tightly to Nick, a couple tears rolling down his pale cheeks. Dammit. "It's… losing a twin is hard… h-he and I were really close, you know?"

He stroked his hair, "It's okay, just let it all out. Holding your tears in isn't healthy you know,"

Lucas trembled slightly, not wanting to cry but eventually unable to stop himself. He cried softly as he hugged Nick, not wanting him to see his face.

Damn he is cute! Wait, is it okay for me to be thinking like this/ Whatever let's see what my feelings tell me. "Let's sit down and watch some movies is that okay?"

"S-Sure…" Lucas nodded and quickly tried to brush his tears away, following Nick over to the couch.

"Alright…" he pulled up the stack of movies onto the table, "You pick today." Nick got up and took the bag to the couch.

Lucas looked through the movies quietly for a bit before putting in the Hobbit.

"Alright, nice choice!" he sat back and leaned his head on Lucas's shoulder.

Lucas leaned against Nick. Tears continued to roll down his cheeks, but he kept silent in hopes that Nick wouldn't notice.

He looked up as he felt some tears fall onto his face, "Hey look at me…" he tilted his chin so they were looking at each other. Nick whipped the tears of Lucas's face, "You'll be alright okay?"

"I… I-I dunno…" Lucas tried to blink away fresh tears, his cheeks flushed. "I miss him…" He said quietly. "And none of you even know he's d-dead…"

"We don't know he's dead because you don't tell us. You need to start telling these things to us okay?"

"But it's my problem, isn't it? Y-You guys shouldn't have to fix my problems…" Lucas leaned against Nick's shoulder.

He shook his head, "We're your friends and when there is something on your mind, we are the ones who will be the most understanding. It doesn't matter if you think it's your problems we all share them."

Lucas rubbed at his eyes, drawing in a shaky breath. "B-But I… I have a lot of problems… I wouldn't want you guys to have to deal with that…"

He shook his head and laughed, "You still don't get it do you?" he pulled him close, "We want help you."

Lucas hugged Nick tightly. "I… w-what do you want to know?"

"Anything that will help us understand you more," he hugged him back kissing his head.

"Alright… brace yourself." Lucas took a deep breath. "I'm depressed because mother died a few years ago and Claus and I both handled it in unhealthy ways. He killed himself and I failed. My dad blames me for his death because Claus was his favorite and now he's an alcoholic who rarely remembers who I am." Tear tracks stained Lucas's pale cheeks and he avoided eye contact with Nick.

"Wow…that's a lot. And you never told us this why?"